I love that you're feeling better and better without her around
I felt great without my sister, then she came back and now I'm a mess again...
You know what's funny? The same day I wrote that, I went to read on and bam! There was a dialogue between characters about how one of them wanted to write a book about their adventures, that the book will be titled Pink Mouse (duh) and it shall be a work on a writer's writing process and the whole thing will be hapenning in the author's head (duh).
I got super relieved because now I knew for sure this book's a mess on purpose and it's supposed to look like a terrible first draft. Now I don't have to feel bad about thinking it's bad writing, because I've been told by many authors that every first draft is bad writing XD