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Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets... Posted: Aug 31st, '13, 10:54 |
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Celestial Wolf
Joined: Apr 18th, '10, 13:08
Posts: 2464
Hugs: 17172
Mood: anywhere but here and now
Location: not with you
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I'm crashing hard again. My grandmothers treat me like an idiot. I don't feel my age. I have changing health problems. I feel harassed by some people. I just don't know what to do with myself. Life sucks sometimes.
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The name's Celeste. ♥
~-~
don't we all wish we were clever?
^Click please! :D
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Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets... Posted: Sep 1st, '13, 01:13 |
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Lilandra
Joined: Apr 8th, '10, 15:18
Posts: 2975
Hugs: 52487
Location: On a semi-hiatus or something like that.
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Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets... Posted: Sep 3rd, '13, 21:24 |
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amalath
Joined: Sep 6th, '11, 23:58
Posts: 3104
Hugs: 105085
Mood: hurting.
Location: void~
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Wish I could just end my life without hurting anyone.
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32. Pansexual, mentally genderless, pagan, and full of attitude. Born female. Is a cat. Call me ama. I eat people. Ó~Ò_F
Qui-Gon Jinn wrote:Be mindful of the living Force, my young Padawan.
TimTam wrote:ama must be mad. XD
Merrymaking wrote:I wanted to die in a bloody fashion. And now I don't even die at all. I don't get crucified, either. It's stupid.
kaguya wrote:Once I remembered my birthday because the bread went out of date on it. @.@
Hinote no Akai wrote:some other random conversation
I just mostly laugh to my comps
or shout at them
I think his head is ok
STARGATE!
LOOOOL
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Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets... Posted: Sep 9th, '13, 22:34 |
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mercu
Joined: Dec 19th, '09, 23:17
Posts: 34088
Hugs: 85099
Mood: anxious
Location: wonderland
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UGH i want to kill myself.
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underneath it all, we're just savages
hidden behind shirts, ties and marriages
i'm not afraid of god
i am afraid of man
you can keep the last of me
i don't care, i am obsolete
you have seen the last of me
wring my neck, i won't feel a thing
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Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets... Posted: Sep 10th, '13, 08:40 |
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Onzou
Joined: Oct 31st, '10, 11:06
Posts: 320
Hugs: 12154
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Spoiler My body hates me here lately, and it's driving me crazy. One thing after another it seems. Started Aug. 16 with vaginal bleeding, not period, and had to go to the hospital. Hormonal imblance, then a yeast infection, then a UTI, then burning clitoral pain, then I was sick and throwing up for 3 days, then I thought I saw blood in my stool, now my stool is black, and I'm numb around my lower back. I don't want to ask my mom to take me to the hospital yet again (we just can't afford to add another $120 to an already huge medical bill) but I don't know if I have a choice. Body, can I just have a break? All this in the span of a month. On top of all the stress I already have going on, it wouldn't surprise me if I ended up with an ulcer.
I have never been pregnant, I am not pregnant, I have never even had sex or put anything in me aside from a pap smear. I haven't changed anything in my diet, I haven't gained or lost any weight. I don't even drink or smoke, nothing has changed, yet all of a sudden I'm getting sick, with what seems like new symptoms every day. Especially in that area.
I just want to feel normal again. I really wish someone was up to talk to.
Edit: And on a less stressful topic: I found out I have a serious fetish for muscular men in gas masks and dark military uniforms... The more mysterious the better.  Thank you Resident Evil for creating Vector and HUNK.
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Art people have drawn for me. Thank you, lovelies! (If you want to be removed from this list, let me know.) Out of url space boo XD
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Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets... Posted: Sep 10th, '13, 09:06 |
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Rehgai
Joined: Jul 20th, '08, 18:23
Posts: 709
Hugs: 26511
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I constantly think about suicide, at least once a day. Mostly common day items. But I'm 'clumsy', or so people believe... I'm not so sure anymore.. what If I am accidentally/on purpose hurting myself? I mean, who else has 4 inch long scar on their arm from opening boxes and the blade slipping... i feel like if i don''t keep myself focused on a task, or in complete control, i slip up.. and when i sleep up, i end up hurt...
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I'm working on my wishlist! I love wings, and the color green and black, fyi.
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Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets... Posted: Sep 10th, '13, 18:29 |
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Popodoki
Joined: Jun 18th, '08, 13:34
Posts: 62041
Hugs: 149232
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Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets... Posted: Sep 13th, '13, 01:06 |
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Sugoi
Joined: Sep 19th, '09, 22:42
Posts: 2551
Hugs: 50578
Location: Belgium
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I wish I could be normal like everybody else and just fit in, be normal and be accepted by everyone.. I'm tired of not being myself with others, but if I'm myself they'd just avoid me.. Stupid new school. I just want to finish it.
And then my jelous boyfriend.. I really love him and I know he loves me. Yet he can be so jelous and overprotecting. Because he suddenly decided that he won't drink alcohol ever again, he thinks I won't drink it anymore either. I'm 3 years younger then you sweety, when you were my age you did things that were way worse.. Yes I joined the sororitie, yes I will party maybe once every 2 months? Maybe even less. Let me live. You didn't go to parties but just went to friend and smoked pot. fine. You smoke while I party because you don't like it when I smoke with others.
I just want to quit life. I don't want to die but I don't want this life. I want to be able to not be scared of every fcking single new thing. I want to be able to be with my boyfriend like in a normal relationshop. Stupid LDR. I love you sweety, so much, but that damn distance.. I want you to find a job and be happy. I know I'm not happy either, and I'm probably depressed just as you said when we just met, but I force myself too much now. I used to be able to make you happe, at least for the time I was with you, within arms reach. Now, I can't even do that. You gor si angry when you heard you still wouldn't get welfare. You left instantly and didn't even explain. I cried when you left. I know you were angry but still, it didn't make a difference that you went. It only made you feel even more sad. I don't like to see you sad and crying, I want to see you happy and smiling.
I'm tired of my dad being an ass. Asking how it was at school, while I told him a thousend times we don't have school untill next week! He know it. He just wants to annoy me when I'm busy. He know I hate certain things he does. And what does he do? He does it even more in front of me. Do it in your own focking time!
I think I really need to talk somebody about it. Someone who knows what he's talking about.
Am I really depressed or just really sad/confused?
I don't even know how to explain my feeling, I don't even know what I feel.
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Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets... Posted: Sep 14th, '13, 14:34 |
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Popodoki
Joined: Jun 18th, '08, 13:34
Posts: 62041
Hugs: 149232
Mood: #TFnation23
Location: Belgium
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Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets... Posted: Sep 16th, '13, 01:04 |
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mercu
Joined: Dec 19th, '09, 23:17
Posts: 34088
Hugs: 85099
Mood: anxious
Location: wonderland
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dear dog this is really tiring
urgh seriously why do people get so butthurt by *everything* these days? .-.
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underneath it all, we're just savages
hidden behind shirts, ties and marriages
i'm not afraid of god
i am afraid of man
you can keep the last of me
i don't care, i am obsolete
you have seen the last of me
wring my neck, i won't feel a thing
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