I think you think I'm an idiot. I may be slightly deaf but I'm not blind, honey, I saw you and your new friends staring the fuck outta her that day.

I think my hearing has drop, having problems hearing what people say already.





Explain to me why life is worth living again ? Everything is stressing me out and I can't handle it anymore. Is it really a sin to kill yourself ? Is it sad I don't want to wake up the next morning. There no real reason to want to anymore. I might let everyone down but for one I want do something for me. I can't handle it anymore. Everyone only care about their own problems and dont care how I feel. They don't even bother to care anymore. I'm going crazy. I hope the catscan doesn't say anything wrong. I just wish it was just sinus but it been a long time now for it to be a infection =/

I don't know why you haven't given up on me yet.

I hate people that only come to you when they have problem and need help to get their shit out of trouble. Only call when they need money for shit. Bitch get a fucking better job then stop running to us when you can't support yourself. You wanted to become adult be one already stop running to mom asking for money or let me borrow some money. We call to ask if you could give us a ride to the doctor so my mom can get some pain meds you give a bull shit line "why can't Regina take you? " her girlfriend works that time and she going to go see her son in jail. Then when we bought up the comment about me going to do the test tomorrow, "doctor said just take the pills not like she has anything" fuck you soo much right now. If the pills would had work I wouldn't be taking all these different pills for the pain.I'm sick and tried of you and jessica both ungrateful bitches only care about your own life and no one else.

I'm so fucking pissed off but I'm going to calm down and relax tomorrow going to change my life better or worst only can tell by the test i hope not for long way.

I'm scared of getting a cold if I am getting a cold then I know the real reason to it. Why do I have rare illness don't have a real treatment beside surgeries ? I'll end up losing my other taste buds if that happen,and I wont hear clearly and not sure if living is worth it sometimes. Is this some kind of test seeing how much I can handle ?