Sorry guuuuys

Had my therapy day yesterday, was tired of computers and didn't really feel like going online again, sorry
@jacob: I know I'd be super bad at taking the b-control pill XD Mostly because right now I kind of don't care that much if I get pregnant or not, I'd be glad XD So there's no fear of pregnancy or anxiety that would push my brain to remember about them. Or bf would have to remind me. I know I'd probably set an alarm, but I remember my sister was having that and I just always knew "uhuh, it's the pill time. whore." (I was mad at her x.x Still am, but not for the same things, lol).
And I'm scared of the side effects like: weight gain (which would be good for me, but I don't want it to be beyond my control), mood swings (though it may be helpful with my pms but don't want to risk), lower libido (I mean, it's already pretty low compared to bf, I like having sex with him, I don't want a pill to take that away from me and I don't want to give him blue balls all month long just because we can't afford to have kids yet x.x). I'm sure there are more, but I'm too scared to look them up XD I know there is some assecuration pill that you can take with the BC pill, but there's no guarantee it would work...
I was taking a pill for lowering pms symptoms (4 months i think) and that alone made me go all no-no on sex. And I didn't think it was right. So stopped taking them. Right now I'm fine, I try to take into account that it's that time of the month and I may overreact to things, so I try to control myself.
And as Poshi and Haze, I'm not too fond of taking meds until I absolutely can't handle what's going on with me.
@Poshi: My stomach lining? It's just that out of stress my stomach produces too much acid and it goes up and makes me really nauseaous all day long no matter what. And I can't eat proper meals because I get the gagging/vomit reflex at the end if it's too much food. So that's why I got it prescribed. But I kind of figured out how to live with that, especially that waiting an hour until I can eat something after the medication is only making my "maybe I'll eat later" thing stronger. So I actually rather try eating something in the morning and try to eat less and more often ^^
Haze wrote:There hasn't been a confetti rain in a while now.

*cheer up confetti rain*
Also, my therapist said I'm making huge progress and that I learn fast

*confetti rain*
*confetti rain for everyone*
*and a box of kittens*
