I search on the internet for other people who might understand me.
So... I found this old thread an wake it up.
It is pretty hard to deal with depression. Not alone the times you cry and cry and cry, also, in my case, the listlessness. When I am really depressed, nothing is working. Call a friend, read a book even watching favourite shows or films isn't helping. So I end up doing nothing and sleep. But that is not satisfying - for me.
A few years ago I started writing. Then I joined animexx and even wrote fanfiction. But in the end it didn't work out because I got perfectionistic and writing lost it's pleasure.
Unfortunately I tend to eat to much when I am depressed. Now I am overweight - and that is depressing me further. Vicious cycle.
I am on medication and next week begins my rehab. Who knows what will happen after that? But I am stubborn. And this is helping because I fail to see the point in capitulating.