Apparently very confronting. I read a bit about what happens.. it is pretty gruesome.


I won't watch it because I think I'd not react that well to it.

Aw, I see. Then you probably shouldn't.

I've never watched anything which affected me much anyway.

Well I know I have suicide ideation. Except I don't act on it. I'm actually rather afraid of death. And it's more like... the idea such as "oh if I walked in front of this car would it kill me and who would miss me" type. I don't have a desire to act on it.

And I've had two friends act on it.

And two friends have told me not to watch it because I think they sort of realise just how bad my depression can get to me.

I am like that, too. I know it's on TV, therefore not really.

Agreed, I can cry over things that happen on TV as well though xD

What do you mean, River? Like two of your friends are actors in 13 Reasons Why?? Who?

I've been out with colleagues yesterday, it was so much fun! But at the same time I felt sad because I will leave them all soon..

This time I lost my token streak

How are you guys? Still talking about tv shows?
I tried registering in an employment agency, part of it was through the internet and I was assigned an appointment yesterday with a clerk there, but guess what. Yesterday was some stupid christian holiday and the agency was closed (yes, I went and checked, despite knowing it's a holiday because I hoped that maybe they just work half time that day or something), even though the system told me I have an appointment that day And apparently if you "don't show up" for the appointment, the data you sent through the internet gets deleted, so I suppose I should send it again today and maybe on Monday I'd have another appointment.... Stupid religion and it's holidays
But I try to be positive about it, at least now I know how the online registration looks like, I know how to get to the agency (and I didn't get lost on the way there! #proud), and at least next time I go there I'll have all the necessary documents. I was missing one certification from my previous job about a casual contract Now I have it, just need to print it So I won't be as nervous next time I go there.

I ordered a book for Ash's birthday, one week before his b-day, how bad of a GF am I? XD I had completely no idea what to get him besides headphones, but that was out of question because he would have to pick them himself and he's stubborn about not looking. Why, you ask? Idunno, his way of thinking is beyond me XD Then a certain perfume crossed my mind, and then I began rummaging through my mailbox (discovered it was the last day to pay our internet! ) and I found a website with cheap books, and since he likes books I thought that maybe I could find something he might be interested in. I initially thought about somthing with history, but I discovered that another volume of his favorite series came out in Polish already so I snatched it. I hope it comes before his b-day, it should, but you know how things like that can be. The package gets lost or something...
Why am I even writing about it?

I guess I wanted to catch up. I'm bad with activity here lately. I'm in love with this month's perk items, how can I even afford the donation, it's a lot of money

No two friends kill themselves.

Oh no, I am so sorry to hear about this River...

Hi mem!
I am sorry about the tokens :(
I got back to 10 today, finally :)
Yea we were still talking about TV shows, PLL and 13 Reasons Why :)
(I almost finished this one, too. 11/13 episodes)

Getting a gift 1 week before the birthday sounds good to me though! It's not too late! And a book sounds good :)

Yea, try to see it positively, not you got all the documents and you know the way :) But indeed, so stupid they made an appointment with you on a day they are actually closed

I love the perks this month as well!

*hugs River*

@Julez: Nah, it's fine about the tokens. that night I was going to bed pretty late and I was like.... I don't think I logged in to kofk today... Welp, I guess I'll find that out in the morning, too tired XD

Still haven't checked out the PLL, but 13 Reasons Why is something I wanted to watch previously but didn't because bf wasn't into it and I think I'll just ask him one time to maybe start watching it together and if not, I'll just start it on my own XD Is it good?

Yea, but compared to his "I look for all your presents at least three months prior" it's not too good, especially that for so long I didn't have any idea what to get him XD Oh, this morning I got a messega that I can pick it up already, but I guess I'll do it on Monday, while Ash will be at work, so I can hide it somewhere in grandma's room XD

Yup, they should really improve that system to actually consider holidays. Luckily it wasn't a complete waste of my time. I got 3 photos of a hooded crow just hanging on the sidewalk, cooling his wings I guess, it was crazy hot that day I got to see his cute feet and he closed his eyes and didn't even flinch when I squatted to take a few photos (blinded by the damn sun).

@jacob: I seem to have a hard time just being here XDD

It was this hot yesterday for us, I was legit dying and wanted to lose my skin. I couldn't breathe no matter that I opened all the windows in the apartment. Last night we had some raining going on, so today it was actually decent. Still warm but not "I want to take my face off" warm XD