jacob, I am so glad that he decided to go to therapy! I hope it will really help him :)

Hi Themis, nice to see you around here! Also glad that you and your husband "fixed" the problem of him lying by yourselves :)

mem, sorry that you are not pregnant I guess

@Themis: LOL, it's funny how kids refuse to acknowledge their state (sleepiness/sickness) because they really want to play while adult men just cry over having a runny nose and sore throat XD My bf is "dying" every time he gets sick and I'm just a nurse taking care of basically a dead man xD

I should be fine after a few days. Everything kind of falls on your head and you have no idea what's going on. Then someone calls out a mistake you made a few months prior and suddenly admitting the mistake isn't good enough, you have to actually make an excuse to your boss so he could justify you... like what just happened? XD
My job's fancy name is "Data Processing specialist" what roughly translates to "Mindless keybord and mouse clicker" :D I just put some stuff into our system all day and it's hella boring but at least they money is nice and I'm not mentally tired after work so I can focus on writing and stuff.

@jacob: Wow, that's really great! I hope he goes through with it and does the self-work. Omg, I'm low key proud of him xD Is that weird? I'll shut up

Funny that Ash and I had an unexpected therapy-problems talk. Nothing huge (although important to me still), we just disputed about our living conditions 'cause I'm so sick of lack of privacy and peace living with my grandma. He said therapy sin't helping him yet, but he still likes to talk to his therapist. I'm guessing he's just figuring himself out for now. So I'm trying to ignore my biological clock that's like YO! GET TO WORK BIATCH! lol

@Julez: Hehe, you don't have to be sorry, it's not like we're actively trying since he's SO not ready. I really got my hopes up this time and that's it. Not a big deal really, if it happens, it happens. If it doesn't, it's okay, probably not the right time. Besides I'd rather actively try than just wait for a miracle, you know? Still, hope is hope, it never leaves me xD

Mem that's how it is when hubby is sick, he can't even get his own drink off the counter where as I'm sitting there playing with a kid, hacking up my lungs, and doing dishes at the same time. Men are such wimps. Lol

Well damn, if the money is good I wouldn't mind being a mindless keyboard monster too! Lol. Nah, I bet you had to do a good bit of training and/or school for that job. I'm glad it doesn't wear you out too much though. Dental was my career before a child and medical knocked me out of the working world and omg that was exhausting I had no mental capacity left after work. I remember one week was very hard, I had a ton of paper work to do, studying up on new tools that came out to make procedures easier and 4 surgeries, which we usually try to do no more than 2 per week as they are very long and exhausting, I was so warn out I went to buy smokes after work on my way home and when the cashier asked me my birth date I literally blanked, I could not remember. I stood there quit and stumped while my Mom, who thankfully was with me, answered for me. My brain was fried and I ended up taking a 3 day weekend to let my brain rest. Lol

@Grey Oh trust me, there is hope. If they love you enough and actually want to be with you they will change and fix the pronlems so as to not lose you. He ended up kicked out of the house at one point for several months and that's when everything clicked in his head. He suddenly was allowed to do everything he thought he wanted to do and after living how he wanted he realised he was not happy without me and it was no way to live. Completely changed man now. It may take something drastic like that, or therapy may be enough. I had told my husband a couple times he needed therapy and while he agreed, he would not go. If he had, we may have been able to get things sorted out much sooner.

@Julez Hello! It is nice to see you still around. How have you been?

@Mem oh I'm sorry, are you trying to get pregnant?

Oh well jacob, this is a very tough decision :/ I'd say go for the first option because you don't have much money now so even though it is a long term expanse, I would still consider that fact.

Men are really weak when it comes to having a cold or a flu I am glad the men in my family take it very well actually.

mem, I like how your thoughts about pregnancy changed a little, good that you take the situation as it comes :)

@jacob: I cross my fingers J does what it takes and everything goes well for you two. And congrats for the job! *throws confetti rain* (haven't had that in a while I guess, lol)
Hehe, glad I made you laugh
Right? You know it's not really possible but you still hope xD Last week I got soem tarot readings about pregnancy and Ash got about kids playing big role for his that week and I wasn't paying it much attention at first, beacuse that kind of reading can mean also doing creative stuff and I took up NaNo so I'm like "yeah, that's the stuff the reader means". And then my period was late and my brain said "remember what the tarot cards said? something about pregnancy!" and then it spiraled down So I can be reasonable and then bam! I'm being all ridiculous.

@Themis: Actually my job is easy enough for any elementary school kids these days. It only requires basic English (meanwhile I'm certified C1 level) and basic computer skills (basically any kid above age 3) and then just a general explanation how the whole system works and where I'm supposed to click when. I can say 99% of my duty training went to hell because I'm not using the knowledge in my daily tasks. They had to teach us all of it though, because they haven't had figured out who's going to get which tasks, my whole team was transitioning tasks from another country (which means we're probably even making less money than the previous employees who lost their jobs by that transition).
So I mean, it's nothing compared to medical stuff I'm dazed a lot because of boredom but I've never forgotten my own birthdate, so cudos to you :D

Nah, I'm not trying to get pregnant. Just wishing we had an accident In a nutshell: I'm ready for kids, my bf isn't and he's kind of right since we live with my grandma, but at the same time he's wrong because he just wants to buy an apartment before we start a family and he would LOVE to avoid taking a mortgage credit so it would basically take us ages to save up that kind of money and I really don't want to wait that much time.

@Julez: Haha, yeah, I kind of had to change my mindset. I'm not gonna convince Ash at all and I would loathe myself if I caused the "accident". Plus Ash is in therapy so I would like to see where it takes him. So far I see some progress, not huge, but he's been complementing me more often and he's trying to communicate his thoughts and needs and expectations from me. Our communication sucks so I'm happy he's learning it (and kind of teaching me, I'm not used to it, lol). Besides I want to believe in the divine timing and such. :)

That sounds great! I am proud of you that you think this way now! Indeed, if Ash is in therapy and you live with your grandma it might be worth waiting for a change in these things before popping a baby into the world :D

@Julez: Thanks, I'm trying to be logical, but as @jacob said, it's that stupid clock It's like that moment when you know you're in the wrong, but you still kinda want things to be your way, you know? It's infuriating at times, tbh XD

@jacob: Do you want all colors? I could buy them for you if you want them

Yay for a day spent together!

Hehe, procrastinators unite! Tomorrow...
I get that, there's this woman on FB that I follow because she makes some writerly content and for November her workshops/courses were on discount, but like 3 similarly-themed courses per week, and I wanted to take them but then I procrastinated, so I forgot and then realized after the dealines and now I'm like damn, I shouldn't have been thinking so much about it. Now I'll have to wait till spring, she said she'll be giving some discounts then. Or I'll cave and let her make some money with normal prices, we'll see XD
I feel I'm being very eclectic about this writing thing, I can;t seem to focus on one thing at a time and Idk if that's good.