*had my own minor freakout today, it must be catching*

*reads to the end, and then sniggers much* Oh dear.

Started taking my shower last night... looked over at the shower curtain and it was different..

Instead of the one we had up for over 13 years was gone. In it's place was the stuff I had bought a while back when we were planning on moving out of this place.

My brain went... "Why does it feel like we're erasing her from this apartment..." then I broke down crying again.


I have to go through her things, keep the stuff I want to keep, give away some stuff to family and friends.. sell or toss out the rest.

*big hug*

Last night I slept all night hugging a doll I'd named after my friend who died this summer, so I hear you.

My aunt Judy had stolen some of Aunt Denise's things that were left to her by her aunt... Judy gave some to mom, I found 2 pieces. >:3


I did not get that dishwasher job... Because of my physical limitations, I would not have been able to do the job, not even part time. Sadness...

Wow. Is that going to cause trouble?

Aww. I was going to say one of my friends worked as a dishwasher (using the dishwashing machine, and washing huge pots for hands in a college kitchen) for years and years til she finally broke down. She hadn't worked long enough for a good pension, even.

I have a friend who is a dishwasher, and another who use to be one who now works for geek squad. o3o


As if these items going to Denise where they belong. I don't know and I don't care. It'll be a few months till I tell Judy or anyone. Though... My nephew kept calling today. OnO I hate that I can't tell him because he loved his Grandmama... But if I tell him now, his mother and everyone else will hear and mom doesn't want that.


What ever Judy gave mom, it's now mine to do what I want with it... so if I want to give it to Denise... then I will >:x


My back hurts =/

already looked into it.

Only stuff for data entry, they want people who know medical stuff...

and everything else requires coding knowledge or an IT collage deploma >:x

The most I could do with gaia profiles was tweek certain things... someone got pissy that i messed with their coding =/ I was like "I just wanted a playlist section.. not like i'm passing out the code as my own.. =/