I was very sheltered growing up. I didn't even know what a virgin was till someone asked me if I was one (I didn't know what he was asking so I said no, which is technically correct because I was sexually abused when I was 2) so I when school ended and I went home and asked mom what it was.. never got a straight answer from her.. =/
I eventually learned what it was when we got cable when I was 13ish and started watching Law & Order SVU ._., I LEARNED IT FROM A COP SHOW! DX
Then when I got into anime, I some how ended up falling into BL (back then everyone called it yaoi) and I loved it and supported it. The forbidden stuff! Before that I never understood the insults on tv and in movies...
Theres a few movies with sexual scenes (being consentual or forced) I never really paid attention to them because I didn't understand what they were doing. So even though I was exposed to sexual stuff as a child.. I still remained pretty... ignorant of it? o3o
Then when I got into anime and started watching SVU I started understanding what happened in all those movies.. and I was like "wow.. how'd i miss this?" xD
Spoiler
Like the movie Color Purple. "Mister" marries Celie and has his way with her (she has no clue whats going on either) and she hates it. Later when she's older, girl talk happens with Shug (like sugar) who is "Mister"'s lover and Shug and Celie end up in a sexual relationship and Celie loves Shug now... so now Shug isn't just "Mister"'s Mistress, she's Celie's Mistress too. x'D But that's not the focus of that story.. and I never really paid attention to that growing up. I paid attention to how Mister was a bad guy, hurt his wife, and she finally breaks free of him and karma comes to bite him in the butt at the end!
When I got older and watched it again and noticed all these sex bits.. again I asked myself "Where the fk was I when these scenes happened? wut?! XD"
Good movie o3o I recommend
Clint Eastwood's Dirty Harry Series: Movie Sudden Impact. Girl and her younger sister are raped. Years later the girl is now a woman and she's come back for vengance as her sister is in a catatonic state because of what happened. She goes around murdering their rapists. I never paid attention to the rape scene. I just know they hurt this lady (didn't understand why the sister was catatonic) and she wanted them dead. o3o
Titanic's sex scene.. I remember my friend and her brother brought it over for me to watch and when it got to that scene, they were both "ooooohhh!!!! hehehehehe" and I remember thinking "why are the windows fogged.. ._. this is boring" Now that I'm older and understand that it was a romantic trist, I actually like the movie (except when they show the old sunken titanic still under water QnQ hate sunken ships -sniffles-)
^(spoil tagged a list of 3 movies i'm using as an example. no need to actual read that unless your curious... =/ dunno why I wrote it but.. meh..)
show these movies to kids these days.. they know exactly whats going on and for the most part understands it. They'd probably think the rapey parts are funny =3= ugh...
When I got into BL and stuff, I learned that back then, it was a thing for when guys wore earrings, if it was in one side it meant they were a topper (or straight) the other side was that they were the bottom or something. (it was a theme in a manga and I took it seriously, especially since similar rumors went around school at that time) and then I saw Elton John on tv doing some sort of live show and saw he had an earring in that "Uke" side of his head. I got all excited and told mom Elton John was gay. I was so happy.. and she didn't believe me. xD
2-3 years later he got married to his husband QwQ I was all "SEE TOLD YA SO!" and gushed at how cute he and his hubby were together!
I made my 3 aunts sit and watch "A Silent Voice" today. >:3
A movie about Deaf, Depression, Social Anxiety, Bullying, and Suicide.
I wanted to show that anime (or anything animated) isn't all just for children.
They liked it. ^w^ or so they claimed >->
Also.. this morning, as my aunts were pulling in to visit... My oldest half sister texted me.. Then later posted something suspicious on facebook or so Jane and Judy read off. Kathy seemed so desperate to pin it on Mary-Lou... but last night she said something to me that made me feel like she would eventually tell my sisters. And she had this weird look when I asked about Jennie knowing.
They got my nephew a pendant that says Grandmama (that's what he called mom, and even though everyone around him told him to call her grandma or grandmother, she would say "No. I like Grandmama") and the usual dates. I had printed a photo of mom and jr out.. i was hoping he'd be here with them so I could give it to him personally.. had to give it to Jane. =3= he's agoraphobic too from the sounds of things.
they know I don't like religious stuff and yet they sat there because the church they follow or whatever was doing a live stream =/ I picked up "hospitals are killing people instead of helping the, Their hipocratic oath is hypocracy!" and a bunch of anti government and anti vaccination crap.. and jesus this and jesus that...
Made me wish I was over at Rose's apartment (MIA neighbor) she may say religiousy stuff at times, but she doesn't shove it down ones throat like these people do.
Was sooo tempted on putting on Nuke's Top 5s youtube channel while they listened to that stuff.. x-x give me some of that possibly real, possibly fake demon vids!
Jane got me some printer ink (i thought i was running low, but i just had the printer settings wrong apparently >->) and while we were installing it, Judy turned on that live stream and then I heard her tell Kathy that mom died because she got vaccinated... No.. mom died because she smoked for over 50 years and had COPD and it was her COPD that killed her! D:<
they bought me some art supplies too while we were at staples. Black construction paper since I was out, a new sketch book, shading pencils (really wanted the pencils for the white one) and i think that was it.
OH! I was told by Cindy and Denise that Mary-Lou's one kid (my one cousin) is a transgender person! o3o They never said which cousin and I can't keep track of them all.. =/
My cousin Guy III and my uncle Guy Jr. they're in some sort of rehab =/ yey...
I learned that it was Denise's house I once visited when I was 3-4ish... when there was a tornado headed our way and we had to hide in the basement. Judy asked me "was I that tornado? because i came to visit denise that day, and saw your mom and asked if you were with them and your mom said no and I was later told she hid you in the basement."
so maybe my brain made up that tornado funnel i saw and it really was my aunt judy? o3o.. dunno.. I also remembered hating eating corn on the cob and Denise and her hubby got made at me x;< i was 3-4ish years old! (still hates corn on the cob btw)
Got rid of that crate of photos of my siblings and all the other photos of my siblings that wouldn't fit in the crate. Told Jane to give them back to my sisters when she knows for sure that they know.
today was so tiring and I didn't even do anything.. other than make myself lunches o3o
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I made that for myself... I ate it slowly through out the day >3> still have a tiny bit left over from that.. and I have a second serving waiting for me to eat tomorrow.
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