I'm in a lot of pain thanks to this ear infection. It hurts so much I can barely move my heard or even speak / open my mouth. I feel ashamed to even mention it to my own family about how much it hurts, because I don't want them thinking I'm being dramatic or a baby... Now I'm up at 4 in the morning in tears because of sharp pains waking me up and Tylenol isn't cutting it.

I know mom doesn't mind taking care of me, but it kind of feels like my step-dad thinks I'm faking it..

Ugh. I'm all "say" and no "do".
I just get nervous when I do have a chance to be with him... He understands. I just wish I could finally do what I told him I would.

This is what I had to deal with yesterday I actually wrote this on another board:

I'm so relieved to be honest: Recently I've been having some trouble,
The friend (female) who decided to cop out at the last minute with my living situation
I decided to friend her again on facebook.
Well the anniversary of the couple came in September and it's only been a year and on that day they decided to get engaged..
And then it hasn't even been a full month of engagement the couple decides to elope.

I'm honestly thinking to myself she hasn't changed at all..She used to marry guys for love reasons too and then a year later it was divorce. And then complain about how divorce is so hard to do
And I can't stand feeling like I have to care about her anymore (I'm tired and confused)
When she really didn't apologize to me she apologized to my friend (male) who was on my facebook talking to her.

I solved the problem by unfriending her on facebook; which started another firestorm because facebook is so important to some people.
But in her mind she thought "Oh my gawd we can hang out again and i can show you my new boyfriend and my engagement ring! And you can approve and be all happy with him!"
And i don't think she understands that the real reason I think she didn't let me stay with her was because of that man..That I hate that man with a burning passion and i blame that man for everything. (She even went as far as to say oh i think tyler and him would get along well and i'm just like uh no he seems like kind of a cocky intelligent jerk and tyler has one of those friends already.)
And i think she married him to further her education.

-_-' Irrk her fiance decided to send me a message defending her and insulting me.
So I wrote a message back when I had cooled down and stopped cussing that basically said "Back off it's none of your business, I get it you're married and she's upset and you feel some need to defend her, but the past is past and friends stop being friends that's called life. Actually I think I am grown up far more than you if I don't have to cuss to get my point across and I think a living situation is kind of a big deal to back out of."

And then I blocked both of them, because this is the same stuff one of my friends pulled when I had upset another one of my friends. I can't apparently upset my married friends but it's okay to upset them when they're single because the boyfriend's head isn't up my butt.