There was a boy in my class from kindergarten until I quit 10th.
He always messed with me and I always fought back.
The last thing he did was yell in my ear.
I stood up, grabbed his arm and threw him into a row of desks.
He got mad at me because I did that.
But if he hadn't yelled in my ear, which he KNEW was wrong and stupid, he wouldn't have gotten thrown.
So I guess that's why I don't see people starting a problem with someone, unnecessarily, and getting hit or shoved or whatever.
I also tend to react instantly.
Like when I was younger, if someone pushed me, I'd push them back.
One day my mom got really drunk and she slapped me across my face.
Instead of crying and running away or yelling at her, I slapped her back.
The look of surprise on her face was...priceless.
I hold so much in that it hurts me, but if I express things, I feel terrified, so I keep it in.
I'm so afraid to stand up for myself it's not even funny.
I will do it, but I have to get really really angry.
When I get angry, I get stuff done.
It's sad that has to be the cause.