I don't think you should feel bad for thinking that it would be better for her to pass. We don't know for sure what our pets are thinking. But most people think it's ok to put a pet down when the pet seems to be suffering. So I think it's actually a lot like that.
I don't have much advice on making her comfortable though.
My grandmother had Alzheimer's and passed away 10 days ago. She was a horrible person with a long history of child abuse, so she wasn't really close to anyone, I didn't see her the past few years, and I if I'm being really honest, I don't care whether she was comfortable or not. But my father and uncle said that she kept asking where her boyfriend was. He died almost 25 years ago. They printed out his obituary so that she could see it and know that he died. They thought that was helpful, but I thought it was cruel. I mean, she was so awful that I don't care how cruel anyone was to her. But I took care of my mother's best friend's mother when she got bad. And when she would call for her husband, I would say he'd be right back. I'm certainly no expert. But, if she doesn't remember that he died, then I saw no reason to remind her and make her feel the loss again, you know? I think that having her think that he will be right back is a lot more comforting.
Other than that, it might be comforting for her to hear names, stories, music, tv shows, movies, etc that are from the time when she was younger/that she remembers better.
Either way, don't feel guilty. Your feelings are normal and valid. There is only so much you can do to comfort her right now. And if it gets too difficult for you to keep going, that's ok too. I didn't even visit my good grandmother when she got bad because I wanted to remember her like how she was before. Some people might think that was wrong, but that was what I felt comfortable with, and I don't regret it. I dream about her often, and, in my dreams, she's always how she used to be.
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