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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Jan 12th, '12, 19:23    


ladyceres

Joined: Jun 4th, '09, 21:34
Posts: 7206
Hugs: 354591
Mood: :O ghost mode
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Location: With my husband raising my child draco
I haven't seen that side of my family since the accident went down and everyone went their separate ways (got families and such.) I wonder what the conversations will be about and that worries me :/.

I don't really get along with my stepmother's mom and I'm only going because i really want to see how all the kids are doing.

I missed so much in the past 8 years or so..

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Jan 13th, '12, 20:32    


Lilandra

Joined: Apr 8th, '10, 15:18
Posts: 2975
Hugs: 52430
Location: On a semi-hiatus or something like that.
I'm so sick of my sister. I'm sick of how my mother constantly gets mad at me for the times when I get into a fight with my sister, even when it's her fault. When I tell her it's my sister's fault, she just says: "It's not about whose fault it is." So, you mean that it isn't my fault? Because if it was, I'm sure you'd tell me. But if it's not my fault, but hers, why do you blame me? I don't get it.
My sister studies in a new city now. You pay her rent, her study fees. You even buy food for her. You'd always take her back in if she was to return to this city. But you won't let me live with you, although you know that I can't find a job despite dozens of applications and you know that I cannot live my father any longer because of his mental illness.
But you tell me you don't love her more than me. Let's assume you don't, why do you treat her better than me? Why do tolerate, even excuse her bad behavior, but always complain when I have issues?

One day I will have a job or a study place. Then I will move out and not look back. You know how much I love you, but all I ever hear is how hard I make your life. Do you think that my life is just sunshine?

I know how immature that sounds, but I don't care: I won't talk to my sister again. Unless she apologizes to me (and we all know she won't, she still believes it's my fault), I won't talk to her again. And I will certainly not apologize to her! What for? That she mocked me all the time while I was writing an appliction? That she wouldn't stop even after I begged her? That she made fun of me all the time since we picked her up, calling me lazy for not working? Sure, it's me who has to apologize for all of that. But I won't.

And I will never give her private lessons again. I've wasted so much time of my life trying to help her with school, but she never worked for it, never did the stuff we agreed she would do for practice at home. I had to write stuff for her, do her homework, help her with her exams. And she tells me that she's sick of showing consideration for me. I told her she had never in her entire fucking life shown any consideration for me. She never has. And you know that. You know that she would tease me till I'd explode. She always did it. She did when we were kids, and she still does it. Even when I'm completely down with my nerves, desperately trying to get my application into the mail so I could've a chance to get that job I want. And she wouldn't stop. I asked her many times to stop today. Many times. And she didn't stop. But it's my fault. It's always my fault. And I cannot take this any longer. I won't help her again. She exploits me and you know that, but she's never grateful, she never treats me well, not on my birthday, not on any random day. All she does is mocking me, making fun of me, about how lazy I am, about how incapable I am, about how insane I am.

And you are right. It will stop now. But not like you think it will. You believe we will resolve this. But we won't. Resolving means that I admit I did her wrong and you know I didn't. I won't lie. I won't say I'm sorry. I'm not sorry. I will never fight with her again. You know why? Because I will never talk to her again. Not until she starts treating me kindly. And we all know she never will.
End of the story.

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Jan 17th, '12, 01:49    


moonlight_sonata

Joined: Oct 21st, '10, 01:54
Posts: 1568
Hugs: 37587
Mood: Feeling bleh
Location: Doesn't matter >=)
I'm useless.......

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Jan 17th, '12, 10:13    


AngelicNote

Joined: Nov 15th, '10, 05:30
Posts: 184
Hugs: 4337
Mood: Carefree~
Location: City by the Bay
Why, why do you have to make every little thing into a big explosion?

I get it she's a bad friend, well guess what? I knew that after I saw how she treated her own daughter. And now you say that your're done with her, let me tell you, you're not. Sure you're ignoring her annoying messages, but you still respond to them by complaining about them to me.

If you were really over her then you wouldn't care period. Why can't you see that? And even if I told you this in person, you'd end up turning me into an enemy and saying that I'm at her side. Like you always do when you hear something you don't like.

Another thing, I've been going behind your back and doing something you wouldn't like. I've been texting Addy, her daughter who she treats like crap. I don't think it's fair that you asked me to ignore Addy because of a fight between you and her. Addy's one of my bestest friends, we share the same birthday, like almost the same things and have terrible parents who love to abuse us. I would never stop being her friend.

I just wished you understood me more, I mean you are my own mother...

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Jan 20th, '12, 03:19    


ladyceres

Joined: Jun 4th, '09, 21:34
Posts: 7206
Hugs: 354591
Mood: :O ghost mode
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Location: With my husband raising my child draco
I'm terribly miserable without a job I want to make money and do what I want to do and not be so depressed. When I had a job i wasn't depressed!

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March 30th 2011: RIP Ray of Havoc..You are remembered and loved

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Jan 21st, '12, 04:56    


moonlight_sonata

Joined: Oct 21st, '10, 01:54
Posts: 1568
Hugs: 37587
Mood: Feeling bleh
Location: Doesn't matter >=)
I feel old and tired of a lot of things. I can't remember my age sometimes. I miss my teen years they were so fun.

I should dye my hair black...

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Jan 22nd, '12, 08:49    


Bunnei

Joined: Feb 17th, '09, 02:13
Posts: 4076
Hugs: 181060
Mood: Fall colors <3
Location: Oregon. U.S.
I hate my boyfriend. I just found out that he is an alcoholic, and that he has been lying to me still after many troubles with his hundreds and hundreds of lies in the past.
Why the fuck does he have to lie to me? Does he think I am a fool? :mcmeh:

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Jan 23rd, '12, 00:18    


s0yya

Joined: Dec 26th, '11, 03:21
Posts: 146
Hugs: 9595
Mood: sleepy
Location: Neptune
Some days I hate society so much I just want to move away and become a hermit.

I feel like it's a culture of ignorant, selfish fools I live in. I may not be perfect, but I treat people with decency, it's not that hard to do...but looking around you'd think it was.

F--k you, person on the bus yelling into their cell phone for 20 minutes straight. F--k you, grumpy old b--ch treating the waiter like a slave. F--k you, racist, sexist, classist a--holes. F--k you, douchebag who won't hold the door for someone with arms filled with bags. F--k you, teenaged pricks who laugh at the handicapped guy. F--k you, addict motherf--kers who neglect and abuse your children and never say you're sorry or do any better. F--k you, self-pitying hypochondriac lady. F--k you, lazy scum who scam the government for money when others are truly in need. F--k you, shitty parent who slaps their child instead of consoling them. F--k you, selfish c--ts who can't spare a penny for charity but live in a f--king high rise and drive a BMW. F--k you, "creation science" fascists. F--k you, arrogant teenaged skanks who think you really matter to all the people who see you as a disposable object. F--k you, pigs who treat women like s--t. F--k you, self-pitying women with a victim complex. F--k you, TV psychics and faith healer scam artists who prey on lonely, sick, and demented people. F--k you, holy rollers and smug atheists who are convinced you know everything. F--k you, stealing, lying, cheating people who use others like it's your job. F--k you, whiny suburban kids who b--ch because you didn't get an iPhone, like it's the end of the world.

I hate 'Toddlers and Tiaras'. It's abuse and people think it's cute. Honestly, some people are really messed up, and they think they're normal just because other similarly messed up people tell them so. They need to get their heads out of their a--es. Give your child an education, expose them to the arts...really anything but the wigs, makeup, waxing, fake tans and self image issues at age 3 would do.

*Don't get me wrong, I want things to be good. I'm an idealist, and I am usually hopeful for better things...I try my best to be considerate, kind, fair, helpful...but that's why I can become bitter. Other people seem to not give a s--t, act like they're the only person on earth, and screw others over in the process. People are lazy, greedy, and ungrateful. It's sad.

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Jan 23rd, '12, 18:36    


maylene

Joined: Sep 26th, '10, 15:50
Posts: 83
Hugs: 2520
Location: Over the Rainbow
I love you. You only think of me as a friend. When I see you and your girlfriend, I feel the need to hurt somebody... And nobody knows what's inside me, because I didn't show my feelings. Now I want to tell this to you... but it just wouldn't help. Maybe you couldn't even believe it.

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Jan 23rd, '12, 19:05    


Magicgirl17

Joined: Sep 1st, '10, 18:35
Posts: 150
Hugs: 3850
Mood: Eh, I'm good. Wish I had more time to write though...
Location: On Metru Nui, sneaking up on a Toa. Then back to U.S of A
Sometimes, if I believed in that stuff, I'd think I did something bad in a past life.

A empty heart were I don't feel anything; everything comes from my head.

A family who must have me doing stuff for them over and over and over and over without so much as a please or thank you.

Parents who whine and gripe and yell and scold me for getting behind in my school work, but are the MAIN reason I'm behind. But no, thats not true. Its not their fault, its never their fault. I must be making it up.

Insulted so much the not having emosions is sometimes a blessing. No comion sense, can't listen, can't admit your mistakes, in la-la land, dumb, don't think, how can you think about weddings when what kind of husband would you get? What job, what house, what importent things would you do?

My free time is early mornings when I'm have asleep, and late at night when I'm forbiden to write.

And I keep feeling down when I think of how if I make it to adulthood, if I marry, if I'll have kids in a safe home...

My life sucks...

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