I talked to my uncle again today and he helped me a little by saying my hobbies won't send me to hell.
But he also said porn, gays and masturbation were sin.
Which I strongly disagree with, but I guess I'm wrong and stupid because God never changes and the bible is 100% his word.
He also said God sees black and white, whereas I think God sees gray.
He said only humans see gray.
And like, how can an all-powerful, all-loving, almighty God only see black and white?
How can he send people to hell if he "loves" us so much?
I would think a God wouldn't inflict pain on someone he loves and that's what hell is - true pain.
How can that be "love"?
I also don't understand how "love" can be wrong and a sin against God with gays.
Gays love men and women the same way a man loves a woman.
How can one be RIGHT and the other an ABOMINATION?
And I don't buy the "reproduction" bullshit.
If everyone reproduced, there'd be nothing left on earth.
I guess I'm doomed to either depend on other people all my life, or go out on a limb and trust my own beliefs.
I know I'm not alone, but what if we're wrong?
When I die and if I go to heaven, what if God says "Welcome home, Ashley, btw I do hate gays and think they're wrong."
I wouldn't even want that kind of God or to get into heaven...