Lol, Raine, when I imagine your accent and you trying to correct yourself, it's just so cute It's a mute T then for you, but if I imagine the sound of the speech, it's still understandable for me.
I once watched a whole bunch of youtube movies about accents, mostly differences for British and American (I had a hype for voice acting, which in Poland works totally different than in US or Japan anyways, but one can dream right?), now I'm pretty good at both I guess. Not best and not native, but for a Pole I think I do great, especially when I hear the Polish accent for English at the office everyday, I just cringe. One of them is an old man tho, so I can forgive him XD

Aww, I wanna live where you live D: I'm so jealous

It is super stressful, but I appreciate his every effort. I know it's hard for him to share his feelings, he's just scared to hurt me, but it's so unhealthy to bottle things up like he does and it still it backfires at both of us, since it hurts me twice as much, knowing he would rather hurt in silence than share things with me... But he tries and I try to not overload him, so I'm hopefull for the future. And knowing him, talking thing out is inhuman effort for him, so it's really something that he talked with me then XD

Anyone would hate it. It just feels unfair, I try my best for everyone and still they just stay in denial. And there's no escape for me either, it seems.

Lol, I was such a poor eater, even when we had little to eat anyways. I would rather not eat at all than to eat something I didn't like... And expired food sounds dangerous, but i it smelled okay, then I don't see much problem. Expiration dates are tricky, people don't get them at times as I read somewhere (but I forgot how it worked already) XD But it's still good you had someone who helped you out in your bad times
You have the smell, I have the hearing. I sometimes hear things no one else is hearing, and I need almost complete silence to fall asleep, I wake up easily Lol, with your enhanced smell and my enhanced hearing, we make a perfect dog XD (I dunno why I said that, it's late in here and it just came to my mind out of nowhere )

Yeah... I think most people don't even knwo these rules, simply because they don't come up with weirdo names. But I'm not super fond of our Polish names, and I've always been interested in names meanings and ethimology, so here I am, knowing all things about naming your kid in Poland XD
It kind of is gross, yep XD I think that's because it's with the SZ sound, which sounds ugly or nice depending on what kind of sounds you're fond of in a language. Sometimes I say a word with SZ or RZ (or both, or other weirdo letters, lol) and stop and just enjoy the sound of that Polish note. But then I have days when I cringe at hearing my own language, cause it sounds so edgy

I don't know, some accents may be a little annoying to some people. Like I'm not super fond of British accent, because it sounds pretensional and loftily. And someone else may say they love British accent because it's... uhhh, wait, give me sec, I'll think of something positive... ... ... okay, royal. some may say it sound royal, right? Right. lolololol But on the other hand I like Merida's accent (not sure, it was Scottish, right?), it's cute. So I guess it depends on a person

Okay, dry is not the best for me, but I still wanna live there

I hope so, too, cause it's really hard without almost no communication ;__;

Lol, I'm just the cook's helper, I have the talent to always do something wrong when I cook alone. Too much salt, too little salt, burn the meat? You can count on me My bf is the big cook around the house. Not currently tho, his step-dad reserved all the cooking. He cooks in advance, so there's no need for Ash to cook anything (#internalscream I love his cooking ), because we have plenty of food for the week and more.
Lol, you really have the pancake mix in US! I had a huge conversation about it with my current boss, I couldn't believe you can get mix for something as easy as pancakes (we don;t have such a mix in PL). And he didn't know the recipe, so I had to give him one and instruct him, because he wanted some pancakes. It was funny.

Woof! XD
Aw, poor you! and shame on your brother to cause someone so much stress, and at 3am, that's terrible! I've been experiencing a lot of stress headaches too, it mainly concerned xmas and having to meet with my sister and trying not to at any cost (we still bumped into her twice ). And now I'm pmsing again, so welcome pms headaches #suchhappiness

It depends on my mood what I like in a language, maybe because I'm indecisive That is such a good habit, I wish it was mine, too XD It's good to like things rather than dislike them, makes you a lesser complainer (hardcore complainer here, hello, nice to meet you )

On that same basis I like languages XD Although some are still pretty annoying for me x.x

Lol, that's what Ash's step-dad does XD He cooks a lot and freezes them for later. Some foods stay in the freezer for months!

Yeah, I get it, people live very fast nowadays But I wonder if the instant pancakes are better than the home made ones?
I'm always scared I'll mess the food up QnQ But hey, I'm scared of everything.
Lol, if I had the chance, I would totally try the spray pancakes out XD

Aw, I'm sorry for your brother But even if he's suffering, it doesn't mean he should stress people out. Stay strong, Raine, he'll pull through Maybe hug him a lot... (has no idea hot to comfort people after break-up )

Oh, the moment we saw her we were both like "lets open the freaking presents and get the fuck out of here". So we did soon, but not soon enough for my psyche, especially she brought her husband. For 3 minutes or so, but still, I had the instant lockjaw and Ash trembled all over We tried to avoid my sister, but she came back earlier... usually we don't even go to grandma's anymore because of her living there mostly. I don't plan going in there anytime soon, she works in shifts so there's no telling when she's home.

Lol, same problems here with anxieties and (I think slight, but stronger lately) depression, and I also try to stay positive, but thing had hit me so hard lately, I'm just all negative again.
Complaining yourself out can be really cleansing at times. I complain so much sometimes that it's unhealthy xD That's why I try being positive. Even not thinking about things that worry me and turn them into jokes. Is it just me or did it sound sad? XD (see? I did it again )

Yeah, I feel like customizing the instant pancakes with some falvors could make up for a different taste (if it is any different of course). I love my pancakes with some cinnamon, but I have no idea about the vinegar tho

Oh, okay, that's fine too XD At least he's being cared for (hmm, that sounded like I'm talking about an animal, didn't it? I didn't mean it like that, but forgive me and my bad English ).
Asherin is my first and only boyfriend. But my bff used to have a few boyfriends, she was the one dumping except for her first. I don't really remember how/if I actually comforted her (and succeeded)? I just remember not really liking her first bf, then the second one I advised her to break up, cause we both saw some alcohol addiction starting for him. And I grew up with an alcoholic in the house, so I was like "run for your life! QAQ" But I really can't recall if I was helpful on the comforting part Your brother will just have to go through it I guess.

Yeah, it's over, until Easter Or even until I finally get to visit dad (and I plan to do it pretty soon) and he'll ask me (yet again ) if I'm even maintaining any contact with my sister. Then I'll be like "dad, I told you, I don't want anything to do with her " and he''l ask if we had a fight again, and I'll have to tell him "not again, we never made up, so the 'fight' is kinda still on, and I'm not anywhere near giving in and denying my stand". So depending on how much he'll be tipsy/drunk, he'll tell me his whole lecture about how I'm wrong and I'll see when I'll be older and that she's my only sister. And if he'll be sober, he'll just say that he's sorry we can't get along, and that he gets it, cause he has a brother, but he thinks we should make up. And no matter his sober/drunken state he'll make it seem like it's my job to make ammends. Which I don't agree with, because I did nothing wrong, I just name things properly, unlike everyone else.
Maybe if grandma called when my sister wasn't home, it could work. But I work till 5 pm, like Ash does and my sister works in shifts, and grandma probably has no idea what her timetable looks like.

It does suck balls, sometimes I can't even function properly, because my brain is telling me things like everybody's judging me or they will laugh at me or something. And Christmas brings me down, because of my sister, and I had to euthanize my rat and I miss her and every tiniest thing reminds me of her... I can't find things that would make me feel better right now.... let's see: At least Asherin is still with me, and at least I still have one friend and my boss is a nice guy... that remind me I may be losing job January/February... ugh, go be depressed somewhere else, mem, just smile
Oh, no, please, go one, I can go for hours about cats and other animals. Once I start it's liek a verbal diarrhea

Aw, that's so nice of them I'm glad they made you feel better :)

Well, today after work we went for some New Year's shopping with Asherin, and btw I bought myself another sports bra (cause even walking and sleeping with pms boobs is a torture, I slept in my sports bra last night ). And we came home and Ash finally caved in and downloaded the first season of "Friends" for me, so we watched a few episodes today. And then his friends called on Skype to play a game with him, after a few silent days. I guess they took offense after the last time he said he's not gonna come party with them (all they ever do is drink, and drink hard, it's a Polish entertainment I don't understand personally), becaue he didn't feel like drinking (we almost don't drink alcohol, we're super picky XD). So I felt happy for him, that he finally didn't feel excluded from the group of future alcoholics who don't understand one may not enjoy drinking until you can't pronounce your own name and in turn act like girls and give you silent treatment for not drinking with them ^^ #sarcasmplz (excuse my language, but whatabunchofcuntsomg x.x)
But anyway, it seems some nice things happened today :)

memoriam wrote:I should either way... but first she has to find some time for that, she keeps running like crazy, home-work-boyfriend and so on.

Sounds like a wonderful life.

That's what I really wanna do with my family ;__; And I did that with my elementary school "friends". They called me a liar, but I was 100% true, and jsut probably shared too much detail for their tastes... btw, am I talking too much? I just felt I shared too many inconvenient information...

Who cares? I'm a stranger on the internet. What am I going to do with your secrets? I don't even know who you are, really. Don't worry about it. I've been talking a lot, too. I'll keep your secrets if you'll keep mine.

But it seems I'm with him for my selfish desire to feel safe and loved... which is human and perfectly normal, right? I feel guilty even for feeling that

That is very normal. Don't be with someone if they don't make you feel at least loved. You deserve that much. At the very least.

Raine Seryn wrote:@ Sunlight- ahhh staying in bed all morning sounds so nice =u=
I woke up at 11pm after going to bed at 7 last night and I couldn't fall back asleep. Now it's almost noon and I'm still up. *cries* I want to go bad to bed. 4 hours isn't enough for me.

It was very nice.

Whoa. That's terrible. I hope you were able to get a good night's sleep after that. Do you take something for your sleep?

I like to cook things and freeze them for later. I don't get to cook often so that's the way to go.

I've never been dumped but I think I'd like to take my minds off things with silly movies, good food, and ice cream. Probably. The last guy whom I tried to comfort after his breakup ended up becoming my boyfriend (after a year of trying not to end up with him) so maybe don't take my advice. I'm obviously bad at comforting people after break ups. lol

They say not to drink caffeine before your PMS to alleviate sore boobs.

Yeah, but also I forgot about her sect. So her life looks like home-work-sect-boyfriend and so on. I told her hundred times, she would have so much more time if not for that sect (and a low paid job, so she works 12 hours to make decent money -.-). So you know, it sucks.

Yeah, but maybe you're uncomfortable with the information I shared XD And it's not like I'm scared you'll share my secrets with someone, in the end I won't know the person and they won't know me either. But don't worry anyway, your secrets are safe with me

I know it's normal, but still I'm scared I don;t make him feel that way. Although, why would he be with me for so long if I didn't? I have a big problem with guilt and overthinking things, don't I?

Sunlight wrote: They say not to drink caffeine before your PMS to alleviate sore boobs.

Hmmm, I don't really drink coffee. Tea, yeah. And... ugh, I've been having so much coca-cola lately I need to switch to wine XD jk, but I should finish the wine we got left from the new year's.