Aww Raine, your kitten didn't make it? I had that happen a few months back too, you probably remember. They're so little and you can't help but feel like you just didn't do enough - but I know you did *hugs*

I sure hope it's okay to cry sometimes because it's pretty much a daily thing for me at this point! I guess it's hormonal but man - just. I'm still not gaining much weight but it's a good thing because since I started a little heavy i'm not supposed to gain more than 20 pounds. I've gained about 7.5lbs so far and this wednesday will be 15 weeks out of 40 so - so far so good. I'm starting to be able to eat but it seems my stomach has shrunk? But I think it's because that little monkey in there is taking up so much room? She's the size of a naval orange this week! That's not a pinky nail anymore. Stressed cause I still can't feel her and we don't see the OB until Feb 22 - hrrrrrrrrrnn.

We got a lot of snow yesterday and it's still coming down today. I usually love it but I would really love to take a walk and I can't - just have to bide my time and try to pass it. I really should get my cross stitch out but my mental capacity to do more than read a few comics or watch cooking shows it just not there yet.

*hugs Raine* - it'll pass, keep going.

I don't know about you but the world and all that's going on is hanging pretty heavy on my heart now. I joined like all these dog and cat communities so that I don't see all the turmoil on my fb. I set up a monthly donation to the ACLU for as long as Trump's in office - it's all I can do but it helps me feel better.

Since I haven't really been able to eat for the last few months -I mean, I ate but like a bird. Enough to survive - but yeah, whatever happened, I have to eat small meals or just snack all the time otherwise I feel really gross.

At about week 18-20 I should be able to maybe start feeling her. Bad thing tho? My placenta is on top of her - it's fine, its not an issue BUT, it might make it harder for me to feel her since essentially she has a pillow she has to punch or kick through? She's a fighter, she can do it :]

I have watched so much freaking Chopped or Guys Grocery Games or Diners, Drive-in's and Dives omg. Just omg. Sometimes I start to feel like I know these people like in real life or something? I have to do something else when that happens, lol..it makes me feel insane.

I'm dling a game on steam right now -it's called Hell Girls -just like a little connect three game with rpg elements and cute girls with pretty outfits. I so wanted to love Huniepop but it got so gross so fast. I don't just no. No.

@Raine: Yeah, I don't buy any FCs above 40k, it's just lol nope. Who are you kidding son? Some people sell it pretty cheap in threads or some sell sets for a cheap overall price though, so I manage :) I just wish I could donate without bf staring into my soul, asking 'what have you done? you spent real money on virtual currency?' Me: B-but... they deserve it. I love this site ;A; Bf: It's a waste of money Me: it's not! But yeah, he always wins -.-
Donating the day before your bf lost job must've been like 'oh god why' moment I'm so sorry.

Alright. Just for the future, if you're missing digging items, I'm here, digging every day, you can count on me
And sure, I think I have some Ciela hair on Asherin. Not sure which colors though. Which ones are you still looking for?

Okay, I'll try this week (I hope) ;n; *shivers* scary tablet be scary. It's Wacom Intuos, apparently it's good for beginners. Bf always does his research befor ebuying, especially electronic stuff

Ohmygosh, I'm so sorry to hear about the kitten! ;A; I've been there, too. You always feel like you haven't done enough, while you did. And no one can ever convince you, you always feel the guilt ;/
It really seems you're very busy and in a lot of stress, I'm sending you my positive thoughts (not much of them, mind you, but I send them anyways ). I believe in you!

Oh yeah, crying helps.
Yesterday I was all stressed out about work and my grandma and everything that I broke down on the phone with mom, cursing on the street xD Then I got home, ranted to bf and he offered to make me some tea. And I cried #PMS #hormonessuck

@Lily: *hits hormones with a baseball bat* shoo, evil hormones!

What's ACLU? *is clueless* Sorry "orz

Oh, Lily, once she kicks you hard, you'll not only be out of breath but also you'll be able to count all the toes on her tiny feet Well, maybe not exactly, you'll probably have not time to count, but still, babies are stronger than we think and you'll easily not only feel but see her tiny body parts (at least that's what I've heard/read/seen on videos, remember I've never been pregnant. But hey, I lately saw a video of preggy belly and the baby moving every arm and leg, you seriously could see EVERYTHING through the belly skin. And bf looked at it and said "I've watched enough 'Alien' to know how that'll end", I burst out laughing XD) #long_brackets

You guys! I just had salad! Like fresh spinach, tomatoes and cheese with french dressing!! I'm so happy! I think i'm going to be able to eat again soon!

@mem - that sounds so freaky, like i'm sure it'll be neat to see but also just freaky. Poor little swimming monster trapped inside there!

The ACLU stands for American Civil Liberties Union. The cretin who was just elected our president ( I didn't vote for him ) is basically going above and beyond to do horrible things. The ACLU helps people who can't help themselves due to many factors. Since I can't get out there and protest and my voice is small - I found a way I could help which makes me feel like i'm doing something instead of just being on the sidelines while literally uncountable numbers of people are suffering for idiotic, pointless reasons.

Yay! Congrats! See? My magical ritual of shooing the hormones worked XD

I know, it's super freaky! Yeah, it really gets tight in there and there's no more room for playing with the umbilical cord and doing flips and what not :( poor babies >n<

Ooooh, okay I get it. Thanks for explaining ^^
To be honest, you Americans didn't have much of a choice with the elections this time, it was bad vs. bad, really. At least that's my opinion. though it's easy for me to speak, it's not my country and the American President still has more power than our Polish President. We have shitty political situation here of our own, our ruling party is terrible too, so I feel you

Just popping in to say I love your knuffels, didn't get any when they were originally released but always a pleasure to find them re-released and slowly building my own army of them!

@Raine: Aw, cats can be assholes! And yet we still love them... What's wrong with us?

At least your tea is organized again

I understand your position on FCs. I just get impatient and overpay XD
Exactly, it makes me happy, so why shouldn't I do something to help the site keep going? Bf doesn;t seem to get it Maybe after we get our own place and we won't have to save up as much money...?
I only had one other website on which I used to buy virtual curency. But it was easier, since it was mom paying and whenever I asked her if it's okay, she'd agree. Eventually I stopped and left the site, I felt so guilty for spending mom's money... ;___; *still do; I'm sorry mom orz*

Ah, Okay, we can do that XD

Thanks, we'll see how that'll go.

Aw, thank you! *catches your positive thoughts*
They really can be sweet ^u^ I wish him all the luck he can get! *breaks her fingers while crossing them*

I don't know, both of them are pretty bad, I can't really tell who's worse. We'll have to see for ourselves, I guess.
Oh yeah, we get that too, on both your political topic and our Polish political topics. There's ton of it, they never shut up ;n;
I feel you, I'm also sick of all the bad info. If not terrorists, then politicians and protests, and if not that, then something else. You can get depression from just watching the news daily and still you have your own problems to add to that -.-