So stressful, glad you made it It's kind of silly they have such a rule tho... people sometimes can't control if they're late because of some external factors.

If I'm home, sure, I'll prod, but if it happened at work I'm like... I don't want to ruin it by trying to make it better

My boss requires some involvement from me, while I'm completely uninterested in that sector... So I'm almost incapable of actually making myself do stuff and read stuff I'm barely even interested in. It's frustrating. I think it would be better even for them if I find something else because I can see I'm not going to be a good employee here ^^;
He wants me to talk when I really have nothing to say. I hate when people make me feel like that. It's like I'm an idiot or something. And he mixes everything from everyday life into work while I like to put a thick line between job and home (or everything else for that matter). I don't talk about politics. I don't talk about anything if I don't want to, I have to feel comfortable with someone to talk about those stupid things and he just makes me nervous.
And don't effing tell me I am sick when I feel fine. Who the hell does he think he is to tell me I'm sick just because I'm paler one day (it's not that I drag it from a few days ago, HE came back to it today, I'm like.... go be yourself somewhere else )
So yeah, he pisses me off a bit, maybe I'm a drama queen. Idk.

2 more hours

By involvement, I meant commitment, of course. Stupid brain. But I guess you understood me
He doesn't seem like a person who lets go, more like "I'll take the answer out of your throat if I have to".
I'll try to search later today. Right now bf and I are gonna go out and eat something

Uuugh, stupid receptionist, if there's a line then of course people will be late, omg. I'd be furious.

Haha yea jacob, I would also take the extra money. Who wouldn't anyway :D?
I am glad to hear you made it in time although it seems very stressful the way your doctors work. Luckily it's not a big deal if you're late in Germany. I do not know anything about the doctors in Ireland though, I hope I do not need to find that out.

Aw mem, I am sorry to hear that. :( *hugs*
But maybe it is a bit of self-fulfilling prophecy what you're doing right now. If you get me. Like you think you do not fit and that you are not a good employee or that whatever you will have to read in the future won't be interesting anyway so this brings your mood and motivation down and everything will become the way you imagined it to be in the first way even though it is probably not that bad. You know?
But I might be wrong here.

Ugh I am just waiting for the children and grandchildren to disappear downstairs. I want to prepare my dinner in silence. The people in the bus are just so inconsiderate, talking on their phones very loudly, listening to music without headphones and the like...

@Julez: I get you, but I just know myself and my limits. I won't be able to work in that environment, I stress too easily And it doesn't help that he tells me a shitload of information, then tells me not to stress about them, then tells another shitload, then asks me questions about the information he gave me an hour earlier, then expects me to be innovative, expressive and all-knowing.
I'm not that and will never be so it's better for both of us if I look for another job. I tried something new to test myself and I'm really not enjoying it. It's just not a job for me.

Yeah, at least I can say I somewhat tried.
My boss called me today and among others he asked me to talk with him about compost and recycling of paper. He forced me and the other girl to talk about it yesterday, without explaining what it's for or anything. And then he told us we'll talk about the same thing in English another day this week.
I'm like pfft, I'm not sure I'll understand your mispronounced Ponglish but okay.
So I told him I'm not ready to talk about it yet, vocabulary and stuff. And he tells me to read and make conclusions because I'll have to talk about it somewhere else or something like that. Yeah, right, like I'm gonna actually go on a meeting and make myself converse with strangers. Good luck to both of us that it ever happens.
Mind you, yesterday when we were talking about it he was blabbling something about our (mine and the other girl's) future kids and grandkids and how this eco-stuff is important...
I get it, you're an enviroment-psycho, you care and you want everybody else to care. And we're talking about paper so it actually has something to do with the job (it's a paper trading company) but just fuck off my future children, would you? It's not your concern.

He makes me so angry, help me

Haha, maybe it was just a one time thing and won't happen again, or at lest nopt anytime soon

*confetti rain* for less work and things being done!
Yeah, don't start it before things get clearer.