Ugh. I'm glad your aunts aren't mine too. I'd tell them I'm a free American and they can go f* themselves. But I get mean when people try to shove politics or religion down my throat.

=w= thats my aunt judy and mary lou in a nutshell.. they arent happy unless their shoving their views and opinions down someones throat and they can't survive a day with out making people feel bad about themselves...

Xmas: Judy tells me to stop begging for money on a XMAS WISH POST ON FACEBOOK!

Last month: Mary Lou tells me I shouldn't have anxiety and stress, and the way to get rid of it is to think of the people less fortunate than I am... and that I should stop whining about stuff like that.. (was explaining to aunt elsie that I probably have IBS-D and that my stress and anxiety trigger it often.. i wasn't whining at all.. =x=)

^ Aunt judy butts in with her 'jesus will heal you if you ask him, stop being (can't remember the word she used.. miscreant? what ever they called non-believers back in the day before killing them) and start talking to god already..

yea....

Cathy. (Kathy?) haven't spoken to her in years.. on my grandfathers death bed like..6 years ago or so.. mom and I went to visit.. family reunion!.. she was all "here comes the beauty queen" all sarcastic and mean. I ignored her but mom threw a fit... I'm here in goth shit thinking 'fucking idiot....' and in the background judy and mary lou are defending Kathy from mom "she didn't mean it like that she was trying to pay her a compliment" .. and its like.. no she wasnt.. she was making a jab at me for not even trying to look pretty.. =w=

Cindy... I don't even remember her =w=, she exists right?

Denise.. mom's 'Mama Niecy' the oldest of 10 children... the one who took care of them all growing up.. the one who is the outcast of the family because they all grew jealous at the possibility that gramps would leave EVERYTHING to her (she took care of him for the most part until they started getting scared) .. what they did was convinced the old man denise was stealing from him.. sued her... and pretty much disowned her. I don't talk to her often either.. mom calls her almost every night though.. she doesn't seem to be forceful of her opinions.

Elsie, is understanding and kind. one of my favorites. she's the cool drunk aunt owo

Jane is the baby of the 10 kids, she's a nice aunt but she can be a bitch if needed.

(2 uncles.. the rich (Denis) one wasn't grandpa's kid (grandma slept with someone else apparently) so he got nothing when the old man died.. mom goes crying to him for money a lot when i tell her not to =x= he's also the type of person who says "you don't need this or that. eat beans and rice instead of those luxury foods!" he's not cool >-> dun want anything to do with him

the cool-ish uncle (Guy II).. somewhat the black sheep of the family for being goth like.. (word is he got his 'thang' pierced and it pissed the family off) other than that and that he was named after the old man + named his own son Guy as well... I know NOTHING about him.. its pretty bad that the only thing I know about this uncle is his -nono- piercing >->,

I don't talk to either of these two.. they don't go out of their way to talk to me either so meh.)

Mom makes 10 >w>, I think I listed all 10 people x'D Mom is the mentally ill sibling that judy and mary lou keep telling to stop taking her meds and turn to god >->,

Sounds like a majority of those people need to be cut right out your life. lol.

with Jane moving back to PA.. we won't be seeing Judy or Mary Lou any more it seems. but mom still calls them from time to time =o=

I unfriended Judy on FB.. I don't need her toxicity during holidays

I been slowly cutting toxic people out of my life. owo

Like pervert! OwO I think he's 100% gone now! Mom had his number saved/stored in the old housephone's memory... but that phone was dying so we bought a new house phone and tossed the old one >w> fufufuuuuu no more phone number >:3

as long as he doesn't call us for what ever reason, its bai bai perv for good! muwahahahahahahaha!!!

Well that's good.

Yeah. I unfriended toxic people on my Facebook. I ain't got time to look at their shitty mean posts.

I'm happy for you, hun. Just don't talk about him. You don't wanna accidentally summon the devil.

Summon... yes that does tend to happen when talking about people o-o

back in June, I remember talking about my childhood with friends on discord. Mentioned a neighbor of ours we hung out with. I'd play with her dog.. we'd have cookouts.. throw the extra burgers into the back of pickup trucks across the street.. >w>, The place across the street was a whore house so the adults figured "he spent all his money there so we'll give him free food" I was about 3-4 years old at the time.

A few weeks later after talking about that neighbor.. o-o.. we meet her at our counseling office!!!! OAO

Shhhh. Don't speak of evil then.

Interesting.
Did you wrap up the burgers at least? Not much use if they're all gross and dirty. Maybe he worked at the whore house? lol. Like as a bouncer or something.

I don't remember x'D I was 3-4ish

That's quite young.

I finally heard back from the disability hearing. Denied again.
I was very close to committing suicide but I managed to pull myself out of it.

I'm going to file for an appeal. I really fucking hope that the judge changes their mind.


How are you, dear?

getting on disability is tough.. and it's stupid... so many people who aren't even disabled (my exboyfriend) get disability checks from the government and yet he's healthy and smart.. nothing wrong with him at all other than being a control freak >:x

Glad you were able to pull yourself out of that ono


sick, trying to get over a cold.. people won't let me do so .. keep smoking outside in front of my window D:<