@Jolien, i'm sorry for your loss


There's something going on in the air. My mom's boyfriend most probably has cancer. They're in the process of finding out for sure. My bff's first cat got metastasis within the last week and she only found out about the cancer about 6 months ago, so obviously she's devastated. And on top of that some horses she works with got injured so she can't bring them to the competition like they had planned...

And to add my own two cents, I'm noticing a lot of stuff wrong with Ash since he moved out to the new apartment. (I'm not sure I mentioned here that he wants to live on his own for a month or two? I'll be living with my mom). A few days ago we were on the phone, comparing who's doing better so far and I said I'm being pretty resourceful on my own. And that dumbass goes: 'You're not as resourceful as you think you are'... EXCUSEMEWHATTHEHELLSTHATDUPOSEDTOMEAN Anyways, that's just a storytime for you, since that's already resolved (it better be, made him understand he hurt me and that such behavior is unacceptable - I kind of sound like a dog mom, lol). Overall I've noticed after just several days that I'm more resourceful alone and get kind of sloppy and around him, but he's the other way around. He managed to hurt himself a lot already, and he can't make up his mind about anything and calls me to help him out. But when he came to help me pack yesterday, he got all level-headed and down to earth again. So my conclusion is our relationship dynamic is messed up and out of balance. Me relying too much on him and him feeling too much responsibility for everyone and everything including me, without much support from my side. So I'm looking forward to taking my power back and hopefully he can relax and enjoy some freedom.

And cherry on top: I'm pmsing so him being a gummy bear pisses me off

Thanks. <3

And I'm sorry Mem, that really stinks. Hope your relationship will work out again, I did read a part of moving apart for a while, but I missed the why.

I stopped counting people I lost due to cancer, there are just too many. And way too often they're the young, sporty, health concious people so I kinda just stopped caring about many things and try to enjoy my life. You never know what will happen, better make the most of it.

I don't really know that many people anymore who smoke, even a few of my local quit. I only know my grandpa died of lungcancer apparently, but that was like 40 years ago. All other sorts I've heard already, quite sad. :(

My friend is a survivor of brain cancer, but her life has changed for good, she cannot work anymore, has problems concentrating. So glad she's still here, but I honestly think she still suffers. :(

I need a happier topic. Any ideas? We could get back to food. ;-P

I prefer cats over dogs. We don't have our own though, one tends to come by when we grill outside, but again I haven't seen him in a while.

We named him Chili and he prefers grilled meat over the cat food we put out for him...

Aww, we just had a tiny kitty who came by. A cutie, gave her (I think, didn't check well) some cat food and now she want's to come in... Dunno though... :<