Kingdom of Knuffel

and reading how my 'babbling' wasn't seen as an anxiety symptom, this paper said the judge couldn't see 'any sign of anxiety' during the court phone hearing... or the fact they ignored half of what I said.. and because I sleep just fine at night, my paranoid thoughts about people are lies to these people...

Also, because I refuse to take chemical meds, preferring more natural methods so I don't get addicted to the shit chemicals like my mother is addicted to her mental pills, I'm not 'ill' enough.

They ignored the fact that I only take trash out at night and ONLY if there is no one outside... so it sometimes ends up piled up, or the fact that I can't stand doing the dishes so that's mom's one and only chore.

Because I can dress, and cook for myself and I help my mother up when she falls down, I'm perfectly fine.

They listed 3 jobs on this paper. One was the mail clerk job which the job lady on the phone ended up excluding because I can't stand for too long. One I never heard of before (wtf is a Marker?) and the other... NO OFFICES HERE FOR ME TO APPLY TO! D:< They didn't consider my location for these jobs either! and No employer wants someone who's in the bathroom every 10 minutes for 30 minutes - hour + during work hours! D:< But.. as long as there is a toilet near me I can work..

My mother had a lot more jobs listed for her and she got on SSI D:< wtf

Also screw the fact that I am germ-a-phobic (back to the can't stand doing dishes, and the fact that I use gloves and stuff to clean out the cat box) so.. yea... PUBLIC TOILETS ARE NOT A GERM-A-PHOBE'S FRIEND! D:<

Apparently I am not mentally mature for my age.. and I have a personality disorder? First time I am hearing this personality disorder... unless my reason for HATING and not trusting psychiatrists some how got to them (I told someone when I was younger i use to like to role play online and got labeled with multiple personality disorder)

My lawyer never objected or said ANYTHING other than 'yes your honor' during the whole thing... Never said anything on my behalf...