Kingdom of Knuffel

Wow, way to make your daughter feel like she's born as prey instead of a fully functioning human being... if I were the shop owner I'd be freaked out by that too, no one can ever fully guarantee one's safety. I'd also be pretty freaked out if I were you, I mean, at some point they gotta let you go out into the big bad world, right? Do they want you to hide behind a desk for the rest of your life because you were born a woman? How about taking some self defence classes instead?

i think having me at home during the pandemic scrambled them up, because they did not panic this much when i went to college. they seemed to think that since the pandemic made shutting away normal, they never need to let me out ever.

Yeah, well... you have to start living your life at one point, right?
What country did you hail from again?

India. the tragic thing is, my family is considered liberal and freedom-giving here, comparatively speaking

but just because a lot of families are worse, doesn't mean i stop wishing my family was better. they could be a lot worse, BUT THEY COULD BE A LOT BETTER TOO!

Oooof, yeah okay, I forgot about that. I take back some of the things I said, didn't take that much of a cultural and geographical difference into account. My apologies!

Yeah, progression has to start somewhere. We can all do a lot better, always! Maybe you can point them in the right direction <3
I mean, in the end I'm convinced that you can feel what's best for you. I hope they will see that.
That being said, and please forgive me if I sound insensitive but I simply don't have enough information about your particular area in India, but are their fears realistic?

their fears were not realistic in this case because the bookstore is in the safest, 'high-end' part of the city, you know, where all the rich people live. but because it's in the rich people part, it's quiet, more nature around, and for some reason my mom seems to think crowded places are safer. she's wrong about that. the more people there are, the more unsafe it is; it is people that are dangerous.

yeah, if anything this has taught me to rely on myself, and not on them, even if it causes discord at home.

Couldn't agree with you more, people are scary. But I get where she's coming from.
Still, you can't just live your life in a glass case

I know that sucks, but it's the only way of moving forward and working on your future... you do you, they'll learn how strong you are eventually

yeah. i can't be stuck at home all the time. and also, i've literally been in more danger from people in my family, been abused and all that. so it doesn't make sense to me when she acts like i'm safer at home. i've always been safer outside.

also, this made me hate the fact that i was born a girl. my dreams were shattered just because of my gender.

yeah. i hope a future materialises for me soon. i hate feeling like nothing is going to change.

thanks for your support

Ooof, hate to hear that, Mynah... I hope the danger has passed and you're safe now...

Luckily I never had to suffer through that kind of abuse, but I'm right with you on the dream shattering for having been born a woman. You'd think that in this time (and in this area of the world, I might add) we'd have known better by now. But sadly no, we keep underestimating people over their lack of a penis.

I'm struggling with that feeling to. Like, what is all for? After all kinds of adversity I don't even know what I want from life anymore, so I don't even know what to work towards. Ergo, I'm not really putting in any effort anymore, which isn't making me feel any better either

i'm not living in that house anymore, i'm living one floor down with my maternal grandparents. but since we live only one floor down, i come into contact with the abuser often i wish they'd just disappear because their presence is triggering, but at least i'm relatively safe now.

Merrymaking wrote:I'm right with you on the dream shattering for having been born a woman. You'd think that in this time (and in this area of the world, I might add) we'd have known better by now. But sadly no, we keep underestimating people over their lack of a penis.

my heart breaks for you we deserve better from the world.

Merrymaking wrote:After all kinds of adversity I don't even know what I want from life anymore, so I don't even know what to work towards. Ergo, I'm not really putting in any effort anymore, which isn't making me feel any better either

it's difficult to be motivated to do anything when you don't want anything. that's the only reason we do stuff, to get something we want or achieve something we want. so i completely understand and i know how icky it feels, kind of like depression, it becomes hard to take an interest in life. *hugs* i hope you find something that excites you again.