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Aw, that's good. I just feel foggy and hungry after crying.

Yeah, see? And how nice would it have been if she was taught to listen and discuss instead of screaming at and insulting people she disagrees with.

Well, I feel tired after I cry but it's worth it.
I know I'm always tired and try to avoid it, but it's a peaceful tired.

I actually haven't cried in months. I'll tear up, but force it away.
Because I'm tired of being sad and crying.

Yeah, I wish I could talk to her. She tells me to talk to her, but then she's completely unpleasant xD
She thinks she's right and everything she does is right.
She does the stupidest shit, though >_>

That's good. I can't seem to stop once I start.

I think if you can use that energy to be productive and let your emotion out in a level way, that may be healthier.

Yeah... sounds like my dad. lol

The game prize was taken down and replaced due to a lack of interest. The new game prize is:

I don't know how to let it out xD
Writing and drawing does not help.
Crying and beating things helps 8u

My breathing machine. It has a long cord, so I put the machine on the table and move it to the bedside at night. At night, my medicine usually makes me high ad off-balance and I just want to crash.
Well, instead of leaving the cord the way I do - pushed under the table - she has to cram it under the drawer.
So when I go to put my machine out, the cord is trapped.
So I have to dig the cord out.
It's stupid.

She also complains when my shoes aren't in the closet.
They're not even in anyone's way, but it's not where SHE wants them.
>_>

That's too bad. I think what helps me the most is to try and think of why I feel that way and what can be changed to help me not feel that way in the future, and what I can do to affect that change. It helps that a lot of people in my life are reasonable to discussion. I can talk to my mother and my boyfriend about what I need them to do differently for my mental health and I notice that they do put in the effort to accommodate me. I think my mother talks to my father, too, because he seems to be putting more effort into being understanding even though I didn't attempt to communicate with him because, like your aunt, he's the type to just stone-wall you and shut you down if he doesn't agree with what you say. It's probably difficult to have any discussion with your aunt, but maybe you can find other people in your life with whom you can have a discussion. Once you've calmed down, of course. I've told my boyfriend that I need time and distraction to calm me down once I become emotional because once that happens dwelling on what's making me unhappy will only exacerbate my emotional outburst and I won't be able to communicate what I need at all. And then once I'm ready to look at the event again with some distance and impartiality is when I initiate conversation about what I did, how I feel about what I did, what triggered it, and what I need to not have that trigger again. He was pretty bad about making me talk it out in the moment because that's how he deals with negative emotions but he's learned that I'm a different person who has different strategies for dealing with things like that.

Aw, that does sound frustrating, especially for something you need to move frequently. I wonder if it's possible to have an extension cord crammed under the drawer and just wrap the machine cord around itself so that it's more portable and the two of you don't have to keep having problem over it? Or is it a different type of cord (and not an electrical cord)?

Ah, I can understand the shoe-bit. My dad puts his shoes out and it LOOKS out of the way but for some reason I always end up tripping over them. It's weird. I look down and it's like, yeah, that looks reasonable. So why am I standing on them? I don't know.

It's why I want a punching bag.
I am extremely aggressive and ill-tempered so hitting a punching bag would help.
As it is now, I just punch furniture xD
Which hurts.

I also have issues physically talking. I tend to stumble over my words and when I'm upset, I just can't talk so I cry.
writing is 100% easier for me to communicate through.
But I can't always do that.

It's already a long cord and it's not that for away from the bed.
I push the cord out of the way so it's no problem to anyone.
She just doesn't like it because it's not HER way.

I put my shoes under my drawer. So they're not anywhere near where people could step on them.
But again, not HER way.

She constantly talks about poisoning the cats because they're in HER yard.
Which btw isn't HER yard.
My grandpa left it to her, my mom and my uncle.
But everything is HERS.

lol punching and punching bag actually hurts quite a bit, too. It might be better to get a bobo doll, instead.

Oh I have the same problem! That's why I need time to calm down before I can start talking about something that makes me emotional because it'll just make me cry harder.

What?!? That's horrible! Poor cats. They just wanna live. I'm sorry but the more you talk about your aunt the more I hate her.

It probably hurts less than punching a hardass wooden door 8u
I don't punch soft things because it doesn't reliever my rage.
And because I punched my bed once and hit the hidden remote and it made my finger turn purple and swell up 8u

I don't get the chance to do that in real life.
I get people continuing to yell at me.
If I tell them to leave me alone, they stay and ask me what's wrong.
It's one of those things that when I see "When a woman tells you to leave her alone, she really means she wants you to talk to her." it pisses me off.
If I tell you to leave me alone, I mean it >___>

Understandable. She's hateful. And selfish. And rude.
Like she does things for us and it's a good thing, but she's so hateful.
And hard to be around.
And people are always like "She's so nice!"
>____>

Samson is a cat we adore. We're trying to fatten him up and I'd fight a cat to protect him.
He was eating grass in "Her" yard and she said she hoped he was eating poison and would die.
Then she laughed. Because she was joking. I guess.

Yikes ouch.

Yeah, I had to have that conversation with my boyfriend. Also helps that I tore into him when he got me flowers for Valentine's day after I told him I don't want flowers for Valentine's day. He knows that I say what I mean and I mean what I say; the most I'll do is I won't say anything until I'm ready to say it.

And I had to have that conversation with my mother, too. When I'm not ready to talk, I need to say I need some space right now in a respectful way instead of telling people off; and then coming back to talk when the emotions are not so high. What I can do to keep her from getting angry so that I can get what I need to calm down and tackle this problem with a cool head.

Some relationships can be saved and some it's better to cut off. I hope you can figure out which one this is before it's too late and that you can afford to do the right thing for you.

Wow, that's terrible. The poor cat's eating grass; he's probably suffering from indigestion already. So tasteless of her.

>XD
Gonna beat someone with a bouquet >8u

My mom's the worst at it. She keeps hassling me when I tell her to leave me alone.
Then she gets pissed at me for asking her to leave me alone because I'm clearly upset and don't want to talk.

I have no choice. We live next to each other.
She's always here.
There is no cutting it off.

Yeah, we're trying to fatten him up and get him healthy. He had this sore on his face that would never heal.
Once he started coming to us for food daily and I kept putting medicine on it, it cleared up.
He's looking much better since we wormed him and feed him every day.
So he's a fragile little baby and I'm overprotective.
So I don't find it funny to say those things >___>

Also, here's a bird attacking the cats.
THAT pissed my aunt off xD

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