Kingdom of Knuffel

o3o people really get addicted to that game.. I played it for a while

Lol yes they do. I got addicted when it came out. Then got a full time job that I didn’t have time for anything else. I quit in July and got a new job that randomly decided last week to terminate me even tho I’ve done nothing wrong

So now I’m back till my new job starts the middle of November lol

Wow.. o3o

For me... Mom didn't react well to her covid shot, the second shot had her like a marionette without strings.

She was recovering from that, but still had falling spells. End of June she fell and cracked her head open on her dresser's metal handles. 11 stitches for a 3 inch long and pretty deep gash. x-x it was gross..

Then last month, section 8 lit a fire up under our landlady's butt to fix our counter top. instead of replacing it completely, they decided some weird ass spray on stuff that makes it look like a new counter top. They didn't inform us ahead of time that the actual process took 2 days, so we weren't prepared to have our kitchen inexcessable. A friend had to order us take out just so we wouldn't go hungry. Then when we finally had access to the stove and fridge again, I COULD cook, it was just difficult. The counter top was still wet, and it took 2 weeks for it to be useable.

Well the second day, when they added the gloss coating, the apartment smelt like GALLONS of nail polish on top of paint thinner... The smells and chemicals in the air caused mom to have a bad COPD flair up.. HOSPITAL TRIP! yaay... =A= (we just got a bill for the ambulance ride but that shoulda been covered by her insurance.)

Then this month we've been dealing with weird mental issues. It was like instant dementia.. Mom would see things that weren't there, claim she's spoken to people when she hasn't... then as the week wore on, she would thing she'd be putting on undies or clothes but she wasn't putting anything on...

doctors kept saying that she wasn't taking her meds.. but the 'delirium' as they called it, started BEFORE she became too confused to take meds... so I was sooo confused. This week I finally realized what pill she wasn't taking. Her pain pill...

She's slowly getting better. yaay.. still asking for stuff we don't have but other then that she's doing better.


Oh.. we also lost one of our cats at the end of April. ono Hiro died.. I was trying to find a vet who'd work with us, no one would... and then I found him behind mom's chair... QnQ we got him cremated...

The day mom started to have delirium issues, I brought home a kitten. Looks like a korat breed.. all the way down to the changing eye color as he gets older. (I thought he had central heterochromia.. >;x turns out the kittens are born with blue eyes which change to gold)


So yea that's been my year. =w=,

Oh wow! Well I hope your mom gets better!

My moms toxic as you know what. Everything has to go her way or no way. Trying to raise my 3 yr old while being stuck with her is no picnic. She swears constantly and now he’s picking up on it so that’s been fun. Been trying to find work that goes around her schedule, hence the full time job I used to have.

I would work 1am till noon so that he wasn’t up when she had to watch him. Well that wouldn’t work for her after almost 8 months because I was always tired and wanted to sleep *eye roll*

So i went back to serving. That was going great since i was promised full time service hours. After a month i was dropped down to 3 shifts a week, and would get called before 2 of those shifts to stay home because business was dead.

So now to make my mom happy i got another full time job that’s just rotating Days and afternoons. So I’ll always be home at night and its full time with all benefits i need. But I’m on government assistance until i start so now she really happy because until then I’m home 24/7.

Sorry about your cat! We lost our oldest one on August 30th. She was fine one day, next she was losing weight and not eating. She passed in the bathtub. We have 2 other ones still, otherwise i know my mom would get another one.

Kuromi's getting use to the kitten. still hisses and slaps him, but other wise she tolerates his presence.

You're mom is a pain.. =A=

Had to bust out my iPad keyboard lol my fingers were hurting.

Yea. She’s worse then a pain. Heard her on the phone with her doctor today telling him how she’s basically raising him because I don’t do anything.

Like yeah. Okay. Working 40+ hours a week to afford a life is doing nothing. She goes off about the dishes and cooking and the trash. And in my head i like yeah well if i did all that plus worked you would be perfectly content sitting on your butt al day playing bingo apps on your tablet. Like i pay all the bills (Rent, phone, internet, groceries) and she still expects more out of me. Yet when my sister was living here before I moved back she wasn’t like this with her. It sucks being the youngest. It’s like I’m 30 years old woman. Let me have my adult life please. You controlled all of my childhood as it is.

`Wish you could move out. ono That isn't a healthy relationship for you or your kid.

It’s not. I got screwed over by my sisters boyfriend. We were talking to the landlord about the apartment next door to my mom when it became empty. He went behind our backs and asked the landlord for it and he gave it to them. I wa so mad. Told my sister thanks a lot now I’m stuck with her.

People say she isn’t that bad but like, i have depression, bipolar, anger issues, anxiety and emotional abuse because of her. If i wanted my life like this i would of stayed with my baby daddy and dealt with his abuse.

The worse part I think is that i have an aunt who lives down the hall from us. She has 2 grown adult kids living with her. Neither has a job. Nor do they try to get one. She’s on government assistance because she cant work, but yet so cant afford to buy groceries because they eat out all the time, so they end up at our place eating all our food. And it really bugs me. I told my mom i was going shopping for groceries and we weren’t feeding her anymore. Told me I couldn’t do that. Said watch me. She’s a grown women she can feed herself.

Last year I got turned down for disability.. They listed 3 jobs I could do... I have social anxiety, agoraphobia, phonephobia, IBS, issues with my ankles and legs to where I can't stand long, and issues with my back to where I can't stand long nor do heavy lifting.

anyway the jobs they told me that I could do:

one of them was some sort of office clerk.
another was a mail clerk
the last one, marker, I never even heard of before. When I googled it I got results of Sharpies and Crayola >->, like what?

either way, all three ignored my agoraphobia, social anxiety, and phonephobia, all of these cause me stress and anxiety which triggers my IBS.. but the IBS thing, they said as long as I'm near a bathroom I'll be fine. No.. When IBS kicks in, you're on the toilet from 30minutes to 2 hours if not longer. I'm LUCKY if I'm off the thing in 5 minutes. Mail clerk also ignores my back and feet issues that cause me to have difficulty standing for long periods of time. You stand there and sort the mail, then lift the bins of sorted mail and take them to trucks or whatever. I can't stand, nor can I lift. >:x bins full of paper are HEAVY! So are packages!

my social anxiety is so bad, that I only take trash out at night when NO ONE is around/awake. but the latest new neighbors, I swear they don't sleep so it's been hard for me to do even that..

I can't go grocery shopping without someone being there with me. I get panic attacks when I'm alone in the store. I have to go outside and wait for my ride just so I won't be surrounded by so many people..

But yea, I got denied, the lawyer who was helping me, dropped me after that ONE court case.

Oh! By the way, the court hearing was done over the PHONE so after that 45minute call, I couldn't move my arm that held the phone because my muscles became so tense, i was crying because I don't deal well with people of authority, and I couldn't breath. I hyperventilated. I had to force my way to mom, because Kuromi (my anxiety cat) wasn't enough to calm me. She some how managed to calm me. My lawyer did and said NOTHING the WHOOLE call... didn't help me out at all... and so I was denied. yea.. =A=

I need to find a new lawyer but I dunno who to go to. Who can I trust? Mom's getting older and sicker, and that's been giving me panic attacks because if she dies, I'm screwed because I don't work. I can't work... I am barely able to take care of her! We're living off her SSI and my Foodstamps. So yea, if she dies, i'm very much screwed...

The more she gets worse, the more I see how alone I am with no one to help me out when she's gone.

I've been trying to do twitch video game streaming to earn money which isn't working out so well, and I do this thing called Swagbucks, where I watch ads to earn a little money on the side.. covid screwed that up.. =/ when covid hit and companies couldn't run, a lot of Swagbuck's funding disappeared which means the ads disappeared. it sucks.


the worst part is... my aunts, uncles, and neighbors just see me as someone who refuses to get a job. I am 31 years old, I been trying to get a job since I was 16, and I was HELLA healthier then than I am now, and no one's ever wanted to hire me.

I was once explaining to my one aunt (i have 7 aunts 2 uncles, so this can get confusing xD) about how stress and anxiety causes my IBS to flair up, and two of my other aunts go "your too young to be stressed, you don't know what stress is." that there stressed me out and I ended up in the bathroom for 45 minutes.. we were at a KFC when this happened. =A= A KFC staff member came to check on me.. not my family a member of STAFF!! A stranger was the ONLY one who noticed I had been in the bathroom for nearly an hour. >:x By the time I got out, they were preparing to leave.


When COVID first hit, I was late bringing the rent up to the landlady, I explained that I was trying to disinfect the place to prepare for lockdown.

1. She said Covid was never gonna hit our state.
2. She said if it did, I was perfectly fine because I was a healthy young person.
3. She said I was over reacting.

well...

1. Our state was in lockdown a week later, as covid was found a town away from us and spreading.
2. I am not healthy, and I have asthma which puts me at risk. and I also live with an elderly who has COPD which puts her at a HIGH risk.
3. I was reacting properly by taking proper precautions. Mom and I never caught it as far as I know.. though.. I still wonder about that really bad sinus infection a few months ago ._.
4. when lockdown hit, she didn't tell the apartment complex.. nope.. she sent word that she was taking a 2 week stay-cation.. nope.. she caught covid and was quarantining. Covid still isn't over, yet she's acting like it is and it's pissing me off.




wow, i did NOT mean for that to become that long. o-o, I saw how your aunt's kids are leeching off their mom and it just... reminded me of my situation and how people view me. >A< sorry

Mom will invite people over and share our food and drinks with them when we're barely scraping by as it is. >A< We only eat out when we can afford to. Most of our food stuff is bought with foodstamps and restaurants don't take foodstamps.

Ah yes. The family denial. I know that well. For awhile my leaching aunt was the only one who believed i had mental health issues. Now just my mom is in denial about it. It sucks when no one believes anything is wrong with you but you know for a fact it is.

But gosh that’s terrible. I didn’t believe in COVID either until one of my sisters co-workers passed away from it. I got my 2 doses mostly because of my son since he’s 3. Didn’t want him to get sick from it. We are still partially locked down but our province has a plan to hopefully be back to normal and mask free by March 2022. My fingers are crossed. It would be nice to be able to breathe and work at the same time.

I know how it feels to struggle. I just ad to fight assistance to get 2 cheques to get groceries for this month. And after my mom insisted on order an expensive dinner the other night that I had to pay for, I’ve barely got enough to get diapers and snacks for myself. Being an adult seriously sucks sometimes. We grew up thinking everything was easy then BAM reality check. Life isn’t easy.

I feel you with the anxiety i used to have social anxiety too. It sucked. I hated going anywhere by myself. I go places alone now, but sometimes the company is nice to have.

As for the job thing, people just don’t seem to understand how certain medical issues work so they just think they can suggest anything. Like everyone is different. Maybe they have had someone with IBS before who was only everyone for 5 minutes. But like, they need to realize everyone’s body’s are different. No 2 medical problems are the same, even if they are diagnosed with the same thing.