Kingdom of Knuffel

@River: That's a very unhealthy guilt you're having I know mine is already unhealthy. Do you have someone to talk about it?

Start making something, you'll get more hungry (or hungrier??) in the process X3

I miss gift giving Peter. I found ff13 lightning returns for ps3 on sale on eb games site, preowned but still. I'd buy it for him if I had the $.

I feel worse cause I know he'll be tired and hungry but I just really do not feel like cooking.


Mem - I know it is. Sometimes I talk to Peter about it. =/ but sometimes it's hard cause while supportive he's also 'get a job' mindset too. -sighs-


ah I'm not getting hungrier.. =/

I feel you, I was terrified of getting a job, but also felt guilty about bf buying all the stuff for me and I couldn't really and... now that I have a job, I could buy him all the things he wanted for Christms, anniversary and what not and I'm happy as hell that I could buy all that X3 Especially he's having trouble with his current job and makes less than I do in the end.

I get it, I've been there, exactly same position. Are you looking for a job? And maybe you could find some therapist to help you work through that guilt, it's realy nothing good for you

*sends hungry vibes*

I've sorta looked but not many jobs going.

It costs to go see one and I don't think I'm eligible for the free 10 sessions yet.

Tbh I try to ignore the guilt and stuff just sometimes it comes ahead and bam.

too bad

Aw, aren't there some other free sessions? It would be better if you learned not only how to ignore the guilt (because that's really not what it would be about), but to think of yourself better so you would feel less and less guilt. Because you deserve to do fun stuff no matter if you are working or unemployed

Well and my motivation to job search has just dropped off.

Don't think so. I'd have to wait till later in the year I think?

But I'd have to see my gp, convince them somehow I need a mental health plan, then get a referral to see a psychologist.

And tbh I'm still a bit weird about seeing a psychologist.

Oh well, that happens a lot.

your gp?
Why are you weird about it?

Uh doctor..

well I've only seen two different ones before and one was two sessions. the other was 10 but I still feel I didn't get a huge amount from it.

Oh, okay XD

But 10 sessions is still pretty small amount tbh. It's more of a time when the therapist and the patient are getting to know each other. Then it flows. Maybe the ones you have seen were not quite right for you?

It is but that's all that is subsidised by the government unless you have private health which I don't.

Eh well I live in a different place to where those two were now.

I've been managing kind of fine for a while since I moved