Kingdom of Knuffel

So many things make me uncomfortable though. I am a giant ball of physical discomfort because of my sensitive, thin skin which breaks easily. I mean it could also be the fact that I'm a really small person and he's not. I've never dated someone so much taller and heavier than me and sometimes our limbs just flail about and his torso is too long and the angle is all wrong. I mean I've googled all sorts of things like 'position for partner with large height disparity' and nothing helpful comes up.

I'm not even sure if it's because I'm not ready tbh. I think I'm ready at least and I often don't force it because it's an even bigger world of pain.

Oh, I might try that because fingers are definitely more pleasant. I wouldn't mind being all dazed and cloudy before him hehe. It might help with the pain. Oh and also sometimes it feels like I need to pee during sex .-. Idk if that's normal, like if I actually need to pee, is someone pressing on my bladder or if it's something else.

Interesting site. I will look into it c: Thanks.

Have you seen your gp about it Poshi? it could be a uterus thing? I heard having endo can make sex painful.

I used to have somewhat painful sex but now I live with him it's not so bad even if we just have sex once a week.

I'm terrible at taking up the initiative cause I don't know how..

Tried other positions? you being on top? I found that works...... also more likely to orgasm then.

The need to pee feeling without having to pee, say you peed right before can be the sign of squirting orgasm I think.

Hmm

I haven't squirted before so unsure. Just going off what I've heard from others

I feel the need to pee too, even if I've peed right before, but I generally pee every hour and sometimes it takes me like half an hour or more to get there so I didn't used to be sure whether it's squirting or peeing. I wish the squirt looked different from pee so we'd know

I (think I) began squirting the last few days, because my lips swell outwards and sometimes a bit comes out without the feeling of peeing, before the rest follows and feels (and looks confusingly) like pee. It might be squirting followed by peeing. I'm sorry if this talk is ewwing anyone out... but I just AGREE SO HARD THAT THERE NEEDS TO BE MORE RESEARCH FOR US. Seriously.

Thank you so much for sharing that link JK! I've looked at online workshops and sex therapy before but they were all so expensive. This one is actually affordable for me!
(Although my father can see all my online transactions I've denied myself sex toys and lubes and everything because my parents would freak, I'm not going to deny myself this. I'll probably pay for it once I'm safely in college and won't be back home for a couple of months.)

I thought it might be endo too but I don't have any other symptoms. I mean, I get my period like once every 2 - 3 months but I don't have excruciating pain. I've talked to my gp and they were like 'idk git the pill?'

Maybe it would hurt less if we have sex more frequently. Currently it's about once a month because we much rather go on an adventure than stay at home whenever we're free to meet.

I've tried being on top but I get really bad foot cramps in that position hahaha.

Haha, I know how you feel Ambar. Luckily I have my own room but my mother has free reign over my possessions so she's free to rummage drawers and shit so I can't keep toys in here. =_= She still thinks I'm a virgin. They're really conservative.

Talking of squirting. I take back my orgasm comment. I've squirted once but that was 6 years ago with my ex. It didn't look like pee though, it was just a clear fluid and it hasn't happened again since. *sigh* Also there was no indication of orgasm, like no high cloudy feeling but then again there wasn't any pain either ;~; I just felt liquid and was like 'oh shit that's pee????'

The problem is when I pee the moment I've the urge to, it looks clear too. So though my maybe-squirt looks clear it's still a maybe

Maybe you can try to increase the foreplay? Explore to see what turns you on and do plenty of fingering or oral beforehand. Of course this is old advice.

Ambar - I'm thinking squirting is white/clear but I'm not sure?

That sounds like both, squirt/pee.. I've heard that can happen..


I've looked at that site before. If I had a job I'd consider subscribing.

Why does your dad see your online transactions? you don't have your own bank account?


poshi -

best way to find out is laparoscopic look. Then if you have it they can do surgery to get rid of as much of it as possible. maybe talk to a gyno?

ah yeah if it's once a month it starts to get more painful.. I find sex often helps prepare me for papsmears too.

I get leg cramps sometimes xD but I tend to once uh it's not so painful ask to be on bottom... so it works out

Sometimes it's uncomfortable when he uh thrusts too deep.. and hits the cervix too hard.

I've never squirted soo like it takes special effort.


Oh yeah Peter and I do foreplay beforehand too..