Kingdom of Knuffel

@Sunlight: Saaame! I sometimes look all over people's faces to not just stare them in the eyes all of the time. And then when I talk I fight myself to glance at the other person once every few words. It's also like making sure they're listening or if they understand what I'm trying to say.

I hardly ever make eye contact, especially when talking to someone. I can't do it. I've tried and it makes me uncomfortable. I'm also always asked if I'm angry or worried.

I do like, stare at their eyes when they're talking, though. lol

I guess I have resting pout-face because my dad would always get mad at me when I'm zoned out saying I'm being ungrateful and unhappy with something.

I also laugh at jokes I don't understand. As long as I think someone is cracking a joke, my immediate reaction is to laugh, even if I don't get it or think it's funny. I think it's a survival instinct borne from being a non-native English speaker.

In a group it's easier for me, I just generally look at the person who's speaking at the time, sometimes letting my eyes wander not to look creepy XD

Resting sad face here. I've always been "the sad girl". I'm just in my head though.

My BF often tells me I should smile more and that makes me go all warrior hamster at him: "I don't feel like smiling, why are you telling me to smile if I don't feel like it? Normal people don't just sit and smile for no reason, do you want me to look like a creep? Do you want me to smile all the time? It's physically impossible, you know" XD

I sometimes nod and/or confirm when people ask me something and I didn't hear what they said. It's weird because my hearing is way too good, I hear the tiniest noises and they piss me off. But when I'm talking to someone I suddenly turn deaf and if I don't hear what they'r esaying I'll ask like a dozen times and still not get it so I just nod and confirm whatever they said xD I'm learning to ask for repetitions though, otherwise it might lead to misunderstandings and that I don't like.

It's just idiotic to tell someone to show emotion they don't feel. Plus I might be internally happy without the need to smile all the time. You never know what's going on in somebody's life and you just assume all of their problems would vanish if the person just smiled? What if that person is depressed and they feel even worse about not meeting everybody's expectations to do as simple a thing as a smile? It's stupid and pointless and ignorant, that's what it is.
I could rant on and on about this