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I wasn't talking about you xD
Someone irl told me to be nice back to people who treat me badly.
I did try, but I got pissed off worse.

Yeah, that's how I am - if someone starts it, I'll talk.
But I'm so awkward, I'll smile like an idiot and nod.
I do so many awkward things xD

I've been trying to force myself into not being scared of anything anymore.
I'm so scared of everything and I don't want to live my life this way.
I want to be firm, tough, strong.

My dad's a great guy. My family on my mom's side used to talk shit about him because of his choices and he was Mexican. I was going home one day and someone kept talking about him and I was so pissed, I told my mom I was angry and she told them to never do it again in front of me and they never did xD
I mean they say he's Mexican, and that's horrible, but they mean me too because I'm part Mexican >>
And neither of my parents were perfect - they made a ton of bad choices, but I never once wished I had different ones, and I will forever love my parents to death.

Rosamond: I want to so bad, but I'm so afraid of confrontation.
Last time I got into with them, it resulted in a physical fight.
I held my own and they apologized later, but still >>

Being awkward is fine. I can live with being awkward more than those people that are overconfident and don't know when they should apologize.

Everyone makes some bad choices. That's part of living. Nobody's 'practically perfect in every way'. That's just a fairytale only available to Mary Poppins...
It's really rude for family to talk like that. Especially in front of the child.
I hope they're nicer now? You're right about your parents. They're yours and nobody else's (unless you've got siblings). If you love them and they're good to you then who are other people to judge?

Ah, yeah..physical fights are bad. Well it's probably best to just not talk to that person at all. It seems no matter what they are still gonna be an ass so it's not worth even talking to them. If they say shit just be like "The Dude"..

XD I love that movie.

Just brush off whatever that person says.

Well, I live right next to them, so it's kind of hard to not see them xD

-sigh-

I wish my life would pick up.
I used to be happier.
Then I got blindsided three times in a row last year and this year is going to be bad too, probably xD

Living right next to them makes it difficult indeed.

Blindsided? *lost in translation/context* (you don't have to explain if you don't want to)

Why does this year look like it'll be bad too?

The year started out fine, then I got extremely terrible news about my dad.
Then the year made it midway and my mom had two cardiac arrests and I was anxious as fuck for about 3-4 days praying and hoping she wouldn't die.
Then she got better and I was so happy, then she got in serious trouble.
My parents stand a chance of going away for a long time and it sucks dick.
I don't want to lose more family. I already lost my 4 siblings, haven't seen them in about two years.
I don't know how do stuff myself because my mom has always done it.
I don't know how to clean, how to cook, how to do clothes, how to drive, how to phone people, how to talk to people, etc. and if she leaves, what the fuck am I supposed to do?

I ran out of coffee.

I'm buying some online but I have to wait for it to get here.

xD

5 weeks later

8u

We didn't have cream Bu

Actually I found out that the coffee I was planning on getting might be sold in the grocery store so I might not have to wait after all.

I got creamer but no coffee. XD;

Well, we'd make a good pair 8u

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