On the healthcare note: Don't come to europe. we all love the system since it's good. but the governments are trying to abolish it...


And I so want snow...

Whoever said governments were clever?

They are just more interested in keeping themselves in power... (they're going about it real tricky but it's clear they're the ones doing it)

We have almost 6 inches of snow now in west texas.

We're at a higher elevation.
We have a bush outside our bedroom window that I know birdies nest in.
I peeked outside earlier and there are a bunch of lil birdie feet prints around the base of the bush, like they peeked out and were all, "Nope nope nope, too cold, back in the bush, kids!"
Except now the prints are gone because it hasn't stopped snowing.

I'm in a bleh mood. I think it's cabin fever. I'm so gosh darn bored it's not even funny. I've tried drawing, but all I seem to do is a little bit of Disney fan art and Sonic the hedgehog fan art. I was having the same problems yesterday, only I finally had an idea what I wanted to do. Unfortunately I had my niece till about 12 something at night and by the time she went home my mom had the computer and I had already had my turn before her. Plus I had to try and get a stubborn three year old to bed. And it being late I went to bed too and like an idiot I didn't think to write my idea down. So now I have no idea what I'm in the mood for. I just feel so bleh. I want to do something...I just don't know what. Please don't give me ideas, I don't seem to have interest in anything as of yet.

I love when people complain just to complain but don't want their friend to try and make them feel better or help >.>

lol Well I don't like being told what I should draw or anything like that. My dad once suggested drawing a stamp. Yeah that was exciting. <<; Watching paint dry would have been more fun. I don't like drawing things I have no interest in.
I've even tried sketching random things, didn't help. I've tried characters from my stories and can't get passed the drawing of the body. I'm limited on what I'm good at drawing.

And I'm not complaining I'm frustrated and venting. I'm stuck in a house taking care of my disabled mother and a pain in the butt three year old and occasionally I'm watching my niece who you swear has more energy then electricity. You do that for 24/7 with no vehicle in a state where the most fun is going out to the middle of nowhere to tip over cows. And you can't even do that! So you're couped out in the house unless you have to deliever your paper work so you can get paid for being a care taker.

Oh I do get to go see my psychiatrist on the fourth of next month, so I get to sit for a few hours in a boring waiting room waiting to see a quack, who is going to agree I'm depressed and need meds. Whoo the highlight of the new year. I can't wait.