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Re: ~Beneficence~ Swimming in the Sun- Summertime Event!
Posted: Aug 3rd, '17, 06:36
by Fran
I'm low on groceries (and like, out of snacks) so I need to go shopping, too.
Hopefully you get some good stuff, though. Feel good foods. ;)
And I definitely know how that is, haha.
I don't want to get up and do anything, tbh.
Re: ~Beneficence~ Swimming in the Sun- Summertime Event!
Posted: Aug 3rd, '17, 06:41
by Death Candy
Yeah. It's just hard to feel good when your sister thinks being depressed is the same as being abused and you can just easily move on. My sister-in-law tried to commit suicide. I know what it's like to hurt so bad I suffer from depression. And yeah she cheated on her first husband for my brother, so you'd think that it shouldn't have affected her, but it did. I guess she never realized how bad it could hurt someone until it happened to her. And I know you don't think straight when suicidal.
Re: ~Beneficence~ Swimming in the Sun- Summertime Event!
Posted: Aug 3rd, '17, 06:49
by Fran
Yeah, absolutely. When things are that bad, it's not like you can just "get over it."
I completely understand your frustration. I have people in my extended family
that invalidate mental illness and totally lack open-mindedness or empathy.
It gets really hard to communicate with them on important issues
because I don't agree with them on a fundamental level.
I don't blame you at all for wanting to distance yourself from her, everything considered.
I can only hope she opens herself up to understanding mental health.
As for you, please try to take care of yourself!
I know it can be hard to stay positive, but even little things can help.
While you can't just stop feeling bad, don't hesitate to treat yourself a little. <3
Re: ~Beneficence~ Swimming in the Sun- Summertime Event!
Posted: Aug 3rd, '17, 06:59
by Death Candy
Thanks.
Yeah. I'm fine. I have my family and online buddies that keep my positive. Luckily I'm way to lazy to commit suicide. No seriously. Shooting myself means I'd have to get a gun and that's work. Then there's cutting myself and I don't like being cut so that's out of the question. Then there's taking pills, I get bothered just taking the usual one pill for my depression or headaches, or whatever. I had to take an antibiotic for my infected tooth and I wasn't too happy with it. So there goes that idea. And I won't poison myself. Like I said too much work. I'd rather not do anything more than what I have too.
Re: ~Beneficence~ Swimming in the Sun- Summertime Event!
Posted: Aug 3rd, '17, 07:38
by Fran
I'm glad you're doing alright. <3
I know depression's pretty varied, like it manifests itself differently in everyone,
but I think I can kind of relate to what you mean!
Like. I'm not suicidal and never have been and probably never will be.
(the mere idea of it makes me sick because death = yikes, among other things)
But I do relate to the feeling of laziness, or otherwise just a lack of motivation.
When I'm really low I can't really do anything because I just don't feel like it.
It's debilitating sometimes.
Re: ~Beneficence~ Swimming in the Sun- Summertime Event!
Posted: Aug 3rd, '17, 07:44
by Death Candy
Yep.
Ugh! I hate having big boobs. My back hurts when I lean forward to draw.
Re: ~Beneficence~ Swimming in the Sun- Summertime Event!
Posted: Aug 3rd, '17, 08:30
by Fran
Oh, I hate that.
I like to lay on my stomach and they're always in the way. D;
What are you drawing? (:
Also, I should probably not be drinking soda at 1:30 a.m.
Not helping my case any, lol.
Re: ~Beneficence~ Swimming in the Sun- Summertime Event!
Posted: Aug 3rd, '17, 16:02
by Death Candy
Yeah. When I wake up from sleeping on my boobs my boob's end up hurting.
Disney Gargoyles. My ideas of what some of the characters that have yet to make an appearance look like.
You too eh? XD
Re: ~Beneficence~ Swimming in the Sun- Summertime Event!
Posted: Aug 3rd, '17, 20:29
by Fire
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Fran, welcome back!
I love your avatar! 
The ecru/violet combo is gorgeous!!!
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Death, I am very sorry to hear that you are having familiar troubles.
Sometimes you need to let go of toxic or negative relationships that bring you more stress than joy, even if it's someone you are blood related to. It's difficult to choice to make, but your happiness is what is most important. ^^
I am currently in the process of transitioning to "limited contact" with my mother since she is bad for my mental health, and because a "no-contact" situation is impossible without also losing contact with my father, aunt, two cousins, and grandmama. x.x
It's a tough choice to have to make, but at the end of the day, the only thing that matters is your mental health and happiness. Those who matter, and who truly care, will understand. Those who don't don't matter. ^^
When it rains, it pours. I just found out that my favorite aunt just got released from the hospital yesterday. Stroke. At 47. She has two little ones, in 6th and 4th grade, the younger of which is being home schooled by her. The doctors think it's either a blood clot that passed through a hole in her heart that they didn't know that she had, or an auto-immune disease that they didn't know she had. She's back home now, resting and okay. But everyone is on edge.
I got this news the day after Momma M had surgery, so I'm a bit stressed.
= .=
Universe, could you please slow your roll? I can't be in this many places at once. I want to take care of everyone, but I'm only one person, and haven't yet figured out how to be in multiple countries/states at one time. x.x
Re: ~Beneficence~ Swimming in the Sun- Summertime Event!
Posted: Aug 3rd, '17, 21:01
by Death Candy
Yeah. I take it you read my mile long rant in chats?
It's no big loss. She doesn't even care about anyone but herself and her family. She'll message me about her daughters, and when I text her I ask how my nieces are. She NEVER EVER has asked how Joslyn is. And they hardly ever visit. I've seen my brother's kids more than I've seen theirs. And whenever mom asks them to visit, there's always an excuse. And sometimes she'll tell us they're going to or they just visited his (her boyfriend's) parents. Because they're closer.