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Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 1st, '14, 02:48
by Marionette
I wish I was better at dealing with people, as it would save me the trouble of getting upset.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 1st, '14, 13:19
by mercu
i think i'm starting to develop a rasp in my chest, and im 90% sure it's from the constant temperature shifts my mom's constant excursions to the balcony when it's fucking freezing cause. so, thanks mom.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 1st, '14, 20:12
by Alith Anar
Sorry I've not been posting much lately but I've had a string of bad luck and my depression had not only reared its ugly head again but it took over everything for a while and I've only just started feeling well enough to participate properly online again.
It started back in October when I had some company take money from me without authorization. Thankfully I spotted it fairly fast as close to £140 had just disappeared from my account and I phoned my bank and got it refunded and the payments to this unknown company stopped. What I didn't realize was that a week later the company itself gave me a refund (I got paid every few weeks and have always had random payments come into and go out of my account from eBay).
Then Thursday last week I got payed again (like I normally do) but when I checked my account a large payment had been "withdrawn" from my account that day (even though I'd not been out that day) so I phoned my bank again. Turns out that because the company had refunded me the bank had taken their money back (which would have been fine if it hadn't left me with only £40 for the next 2 weeks until my next load of pay was due)
Then I got woken by a pone call from the DWP (Department for Work and Pensions) about my recent assessment saying that I failed it and my payments would stop. At this point I burst into tears. The woman on the phone told me that I can appeal but I basically have to go back on JSA (Job Seekers Allowance) which is part of the reason I got signed off in the first place. Not only that but I don't have the time or inclination to deal with them as I have a five month old that demands all my attention and I have recently started physiotherapy for my back that I need to go to.
If my family was close by I wouldn't be so worried about things I think because my Mum is an approved childminder (and loves little babies) and my Nan was a nursery nurse and looks after my cousin at least once a week for my Aunt. But I am miles away from all my family and barely see them once a month if that... (Also I can't drive so we can only visit at weekends when my partner isn't at work) Not only that but we don't know anyone or have any friends in the local area. (I find it especially hard to make friends outside of the internet as my personal insecurities tend to stop me from talking or even looking at other people).
Sorry for the wall of text but I just needed to get this off my chest and let you know I am still here, even if I'm not talking much (I lurk when my depression is bad and I'm not great at conversation) ^_^;;
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 2nd, '14, 06:24
by Fire
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I need to move out.
My relationship with my parents is becoming toxic.
I know they love me, and they care about me, but they obviously do not know how to respond to my needs.
I'm not sure when their house stopped being home for me.
It doesn't even feel like my house anymore.
Home is in my boyfriend's arms.
Home is wherever he is.
I just need to hold out for another year.
By this time next year, I'll be living with my boyfriend, and everything will be easier.
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Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 2nd, '14, 06:44
by moonlight_sonata
I don't want to be so emotional.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 3rd, '14, 15:23
by Cat
i wish i hadn't given up drawing and painting years ago.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 3rd, '14, 19:17
by jacobgrey
So hungry all the time :< Just gonna get bigger and bigger and fatter and fatter if I can't control myself.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 3rd, '14, 23:21
by Onzou
i hate you.
murderer
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 4th, '14, 02:39
by Megurine_Gem
I may join the Satanist religion... the rules resonate so nicely with me and if that's what it is, then why is it so trashed and put-down as pure evil?! I don't know yet, I need to search it up more and see it fully. But if it's actually clean, then why not
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 4th, '14, 20:08
by Tora_Fujimoto
I wish I wasn't so childish. And I wish I could make the ones I love the most happy. I'm tired of seeming so selfish, of seeming like I don't care, when I do. I wish I could be able to show my emotions right.