The thing is, I'm not entirely sure I want them to agree I told my boss that even if they do, I will still take some time to think on it. I'm currently making a pros and cons list. But I had to assign importance to those points, because otherwise it made no sense.
Spending time in Athens doesn't sound appealing to me tbh. I'm not an active person. Knowing me I'd stay at home and write or something. I can't swim, so no swimming for me. Maybe some sightseeing, but I'd need a person I trust, and I don't feel I would even feel comfortable with my boss showing me around, and we kinda like each other. As far a my professional feelings go x.x

Oh this sounds great!!!
But I have to admit this sounds as if you are not too excited about flying there. I understand your points, but I would grab the chance to see Athens!! Especially when they pay your flights! That's amazing!

I don't want to go there, no one seems to understand that much x.x I feel pressured to go only because everybody else would "grab the chance while they can"
Btw, I'm still waiting for any info from my boss. Greeks. They piss me off ;>_>

Then I guess you know the answer: Do not go. If you say you don't want to, why should you force yourself into this?

I was thinking about it, because this really sounds like a good offer and a good opportunity to try myself, but on the other hand it seems like too much, too early.
I'm not a very assertive person, it's hard for me to say no and it's hard to not do something when everyone is telling me it's a good thing to do, even tho I personally may not share that sentiment. I'm used to forcing myself to do stuff only because I'm expected to do them.

Still waiting for their reply x.x I'm not even expecting any info at this point

But, you see, all the time you are talking about how you are trying to focus more on yourself, try to do what is best for you. You did this concerning family stuff, why not apply this therapy on your work, too?

I, myself, personally, would do it.
I have never travelled alone before, at least not as far as Athens (I took a bus ride of 5 hours to the Swiss, but met a friend there, so only the way was self-responsible). I would be afraid as hell to get lost, to take the wrong flight, to forget something, to get robbed etc. etc.
But I would do it.
First of all this is a great work offer, as you already pointed out.
And second this would be a personal challenge. BECAUSE I never did sth like this alone. I would grab this chance. But that's only me.

If my boss ever calls me back to let me know, and they happen to say "okay", I think I'll still decline, to do stuff as I want them, like you said. Maybe I'm just too terrified of things. I was focused on a job offer I was reading, bf suddenly sneezed, and my heart almost jumped out of my hest, like literally. How am I supposed to take so much new shit alone? ;___; It's too scary. Anyways, we'll see if I ever get called

Yea, just wait and see :) Maybe you will make a different decision after all. I sometimes think about one particular thing for days and when it comes to it I act differently as I had imagined earlier :D

Btw, there's an update on this idiot guy.
We met yesterday to watch a movie (and I really intended to only watch the movie, maybe a little cuddling :D). And yea, it ended up in more than that.. But actually, I think this was the best thing that could have happened..
Because somehow I feel less attracted to him now. I also feel less "addicted" to him. Maybe this was exactly what I needed to realize that he is obviously no option for me. I am not excited anymore or anything.
At least, it seems, we are wanting the same thing now :D He said we can probably see each other Monday or Tuesday, but I am actually not that much into this idea..

We got a ps4 pro the other day :D it arrived yesterday but so awesome