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Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Oct 28th, '15, 07:11
by ikiteru
why am i still trying
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Oct 28th, '15, 20:00
by Sugoi
It's like I don't have a life anymore besides school. And I don't even want to try to have one.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Oct 30th, '15, 20:25
by Mintyz
I'm sick and have a horrible haedache. I honestly can't deal with your shit right now...
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Oct 31st, '15, 16:07
by jacobgrey
Sometimes I'd be happy to let you do everything, earn the money like you want to, and sit back and be the traditional woman. Other times I know that would end up bad because you would be able to do whatever you wanted and then I would have nothing to say about it. And I can't just let you be a slob and run rampant. I know you get annoyed but frankly I'm not your doormat.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 2nd, '15, 04:18
by Alith Anar
I'm now beyond low... I hate my life as it is. I am in almost constant pain, I never have any money and I am trapped where I am. I am stuck living in a place I don't feel comfortable with no real support network. As much as I love my partner, I am not in love with him and never have been. I want to leave but I have nowhere else to go and I wouldn't be able to cope with looking after our daughter on my own. I can barely look after myself as is. But I cannot leave her with him either as he works and is not as understanding as I am. I don't mean that in a nasty way, but he snaps at her over the smallest of things that I would either ignore or laugh at. I don't trust other people and live miles from my family, although they don't feel much like a family to me anymore. I only see them on their birthdays and around holidays, if that and when I do see them it feels as if they can't wait to get rid of me. I feel unwanted everywhere I go and my social anxiety makes it practically impossible to meet new people. I wish I'd never been pregnant and been forced to move here. I wish I had been a better granddaughter so my nan hadn't gotten so stressed and had her stroke... She's not been the same since and I know it's all my fault. I wish I'd never wanted to know who my dad was... I wish he was rotting in jail for eternity for all he's done, not free to live his life like nothing had happened. I wish I could just be like everyone else for once, and not have to live my life in pain and fear, restricted beyond all hope. I wish I could be the old me. The me from before all the crap. Start again from when I was 12...
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 4th, '15, 03:23
by Sela
i want to just disappear ive had enough i dont even have the energy to cry anymore.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 19th, '15, 17:45
by jacobgrey
I just can't do this any more. I want to get out. I feel like I'm in a prison. How can I spend this much time cleaning every day when I have to work? When I have to look after my health? People don't understand that even to argue about this is costing me my health, making me weak. I don't want to live like this any more.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 20th, '15, 05:39
by Lag
ugh, since when did this get so hard? why am I having such a hard time? I wish I could just throw it away and forget about it, but...
it may not be much, but it's still making me feel pretty hopeless, and there's still so much to do. maybe I should just bs this. just this once.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 23rd, '15, 08:44
by 646rebecca
I feel that I am inadequate in nearly every way.
I just wish I was a better person, one who is bubbly and can just talk to anyone about anything like the people around me.
I've just recently disappointed my best friend, and I hate myself for it. I disappoint everyone, I just want to help people, but i just let them down... :/
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 27th, '15, 03:33
by ραριℓℓση ηιтєѕ
I'm afraid I have BPD.
I'm afraid that a positive diagnosis of it will cause my boyfriend to leave me.
I'm afraid my previous mental illnesses have come back with a vengeance.
I'm afraid they will tear me away from the one person I hold dear to me.
I'm afraid.
I'm afraid...
I'M AFRAID.