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Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Jan 29th, '16, 19:17
by mercu
why is the world so full of assholes who get off on making others miserable jfc
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 2nd, '16, 03:44
by Moi
I don't know what I ever did to receive so much pain and sadness in my life.
I try to be good, and try to do what's right, and be nice to everyone, and all I get is fucked in the ass.
I've had nothing but SHIT the past two years. And I had SHIT for two years with my religious anxiety.
WHAT did I do to get hurt like this? What did I do to get depression and anxiety and shit?
Why do I have to suffer like this?
I try to be good and help people, and people just fuck me over.
I went to the store with my aunt and sister, and I had a happy time. We were ready to check out, and I forgot my stress drinks and stress tea, so I ran to get them. I never bought them from that store, so I had to search. And they didn't have any of my stress drinks. Then I went to get some stress tea.
Well, I went to where my aunt and sister were, and the man was scanning the rest of my stuff, and I handed over the tea and stuff, and the guy behind us, BITCHED about having to wait for me.
You know what, sir? I'm so fucking sorry that I had to waist your goddamn time.
I'm SO sorry that I have anxiety attacks and insomnia.
I'm so fucking SORRY I had to make YOU wait just to get HELP for my DISORDERS.
I'm so sure you're perfect, and God's gift to the Earth, and that your time matters more than anyone else in the goddamn store.
He ruined my goddamn night. I still have anxiety. And not only that, but I've had to deal with my anxiety, insomnia, bitchy people, helping raise a kid, losing both my parents, having no help with medication, and that fucking dickhead just made all of the shit I was pushing back just come flooding out.
I've been crying for about 45 minutes.
All because a fucking dickface had to wait 5-7 goddamn minutes.
So THANK YOU, SIR. Thank you for reminding me of why I fucking hate people, and why I never want to leave my house.
What the fuck did I do to get so fucked up? Why do I have to wish so hard that I'll just fucking die, and beg God to just kill me? Why do I have to feel this pain all my life?
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 7th, '16, 04:14
by Fran
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I have the possibly irrational fear that my friends are getting tired of me.
Ehhh.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 7th, '16, 12:19
by jacobgrey
When you're trying to buy a house together and everything has to be done in his name thanks to legalities is not the best time to find out that your boyfriend is useless at getting anything done and would much rather choose to sleep in/play video games than contact the mortgage people. We are, for about the fifth time in a row after managing to beg them every time, now finally just about to lose the house we wanted - and this time begging's not working. And if it was me sorting this out, it would have been done in week one.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 11th, '16, 00:43
by mercu
uuuUUUGH
life is just so
overwhelming
and exhausting
i work on thesis and don't get a job
i get a job and don't work on thesis
it's lose/lose either way someone's gonna be unhappy about my choices
not that i can even find a job in the first place
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 18th, '16, 22:25
by Moi
I want to cut fear completely out of myself.
My life is so shitty because fear controls me.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 20th, '16, 21:28
by Angel-WolfBunny
I am transboy but my family doesn't know.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 23rd, '16, 03:03
by Moi
I have a very bad memory, but people don't seem to understand.
They bitch me out when I forget something.
Like, yes, I choose to forget something on purpose just so I can get bitched out by you.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 23rd, '16, 08:24
by ashabellanar
i lie about my suicidal tendencies and pretend they don't exist to the people around me. i don't go a day without thinking about it.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 23rd, '16, 17:00
by jacobgrey
I hate my body at times like this. It's not like when people say they're fat and they hate their body, they can change it if they want to. I hate it because I have no control. I hate it because it just keeps letting me down.