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Re: Dirty Little Secrets...

Posted: Sep 17th, '16, 17:50
by Moi

When someone tells me I can't love animals because I eat meat...

My grandpa used to take me fishing a lot when I was a kid. I caught a gorgeous perch, and since I was little, I couldn't take it off the hook, and it died. I felt so horrible and to this day, I still feel horrible.

I saw a kitten get run over a few years ago, and I felt so horrible. I wanted to run to it and hold it, but I couldn't. It ended up dying alone, and I feel so horrible for not being able to save it.

I wounded a kitten so badly when I was a toddler, and it ended up dying. I still feel horrible eventhough I didn't do it on purpose.

I still feel horrible and that I killed our little fish we bought a few years ago. I tried to do everything right, and he still died.

My Kiri had kittens years ago, and I touched one, and it later died. I felt horrible because I touched it, and I made it die.

When my dogs tried to get my cat, I got between them and got bitten pretty badly. I was so happy my cat wasn't hurt, and I'd gladly take bites to keep her safe. I'd rather be injured than my dogs and cat.


I love animals because they're better than people when it comes to my anxiety disorder.
I prefer talking to animals, hugging animals, kissing animals more than people.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets...

Posted: Sep 25th, '16, 05:01
by Sunlight
I just feel so useless.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets...

Posted: Sep 25th, '16, 15:48
by jacobgrey
Every time I think the daily pain couldn't get any worse. I just want to hibernate until this latest illness is over.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets...

Posted: Sep 27th, '16, 22:44
by Moi

I try to forgive people, but sometimes I want them to feel the pain they cause me times two.
I'm sick of being everyone's fucking punching bag.
I want them to feel like they make me feel, only worse.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets...

Posted: Sep 28th, '16, 08:40
by Sunlight
At this point, I don't know if I even care if I don't get paid for the last two months.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets...

Posted: Oct 3rd, '16, 13:16
by jacobgrey
First ill on my birthday, now on his birthday too. I feel awful :<

Re: Dirty Little Secrets...

Posted: Oct 6th, '16, 23:53
by Lulena
I'm trying to let go of my past and just be myself, but
Somehow I feel like there is a crowd whispering to each
other, pointing out all my mistakes from back then.

I can't hear them, I just feel them and I'm not sure
if it's my paranoia or the truth.

I can never tell
if it's just my paranoia
or the truth.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets...

Posted: Oct 7th, '16, 15:17
by jacobgrey
I kinda let this become a secret without meaning to. Now I'm worried it will come across as worse than it is because I've been hiding it from you.

Re: Dirty Little Secrets...

Posted: Oct 7th, '16, 21:13
by Fire
My anorexia is kicking in again...

Re: Dirty Little Secrets...

Posted: Oct 7th, '16, 23:42
by Lulena
Today and tomorrow is our anniversery...
I won't mention it this time, cause I want to know if it matters
at all to you or if I'm just being stupid like usual... caring about
things that don't matter. A part of me is certain you won't say
anything. I really want you to though, so even though I've
prepared for disappointment, I will be none the less...