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Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 18th, '16, 00:31
by Fire
I told him "go for it."
"Don't worry about me. Do what you want to do, and I'll face things as they come".
I talked a good game, but can I follow through?
I'm scared.
I'm scared of losing you.
Can I really do this?
From ace with a romantic attraction to women, to pansexual and polyamorous in three years.
Is that too much to ask of me?
I have faced far great things than this, and have come out victorious.
Can I do it again?
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 18th, '16, 04:14
by Hikarisoul16
I felt a bit like the token female engineer today! Dunno if that's supposed to be a good or bad thing.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 18th, '16, 15:23
by Tatteredlion
People are weird.... I already have social anxiety. That includes online interactions. I messaged someone about breeding on another site. Okay well and good. All I asked was may I breed my female to your male? She didn't say no.. instead she gave me a run around answer about reading her rules. So I told her that it's fine. A no would have sufficed. She then goes on to tell me all this stuff... unnecessary stuff when I've already accepted the answer. "Just being friendly" was her response. No, not really... in my eyes that wasn't friendly. I don't want to be a grump... but come on. The extra messages weren't needed or wanted. I know now I'm just a grumpy person that can't interact. I feel like putting a big don't bother me in my profile. I like people just fine, just know that I'm not always a friendly person.
Now she quoted my post on a thread and told me again that he's unavailable even though it wasn't even to her.... So I quoted her as the post was hours ago to tell her that it isn't hers. She replied "Delete your post. I will edit the post when I'm able to as I told" someone else. Well first off you didn't tell me that. Second wow friendly much? I have now blocked her as she's been bugging me lately.
First time I asked for certain pets in exchange for one of mine and she shorted me by one pet. I didn't bring it up but that is in the back of my mind. I don't need drama on a forum as my life is full of it anyways.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 19th, '16, 05:14
by Hikarisoul16
I thought people would grow up more, but I guess not. How can you continue to be a horrible person without realizing it?
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 19th, '16, 14:26
by ραριℓℓση ηιтєѕ
Spoiler
I can tell there's something wrong.
You've barely spoken to me the last two days.
And after barely speaking...you continue to be distant.
You say it's not me...and that you love me...but I still worry...
There's a lot of toxicity surrounding my life right now...and I'm scared.
I just wanna feel secure in us...
Maybe after we talk tonight I will feel better...
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 20th, '16, 05:18
by Sunlight
I just can't find the motivation to get out.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 20th, '16, 15:09
by Fire
I never even considered the possibility that I would be homesick.
But here I am, thousands of miles away, finally living my dream, and all I want is to see my friends and my dog again.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 20th, '16, 18:54
by Fire
I had a terrible nightmare last night.
Spoiler
Trump had already been sworn in to presidency.
In a press conference, he talked about the "gay epidemic" being a "plague" that was "sweeping across the nation", and that he was starting a campaign to "eradicate the gay" from America.
When one news reporter asked how he planned to do that, he responded that he would "deport all of the fags". When the reporter asked where they would be deported to, since these were American citizens who had lived here there entire life, he said that he would "ship them off to Mexico", claiming that "if the Mexicans want to send us all of their rapists and murderers, we'll send them all of our fags".
Houses and store fronts were raided. People were dragged off by armed personnel, never to be seen again. People started accusing others of being gay, whether it was true or not. People were disappearing by the hundreds.
At first, there were protests. But all of the protesters were quickly arrested, never to be seen again. Soon, people were just trying to flee with their lives. They'd pack up everything they owned and buy the next ticket out of the country. But the government caught on, and started doing additional screening at the airport - every United States citizen leaving the country via air, bus, or train (regardless on whether they had a one way ticket or a round trip ticket) was put through hours of investigation and questioning, during which they had to "prove" that they were straight.
The UN considered putting economic sanctions on the United States. Many criticized that this was simply not enough.
The EU started refusing entry to the thousands of people fleeing the States, citing that they "had enough refugees as it is".
Canada soon closed its borders, as did Mexico.
One by one, people were running out of places to turn to.
I woke up shaking and sobbing.
Because the mere thought of such a world was terrifying.
And it is a world that I could live to see.
All day I've been having flashbacks.
I can't stop seeing it.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 25th, '16, 16:09
by saiyouri
I really want someone to carve out my back or stab it with a ice pick badly. This pain in the left side of my back every single day and all damn day long is really bothering me alot. I got a week and half left of hell and there's nothing I can do to stop the damn thing. Not until I buy a new mattress and I then have to wait for the damn thing to come in the mail. The new month can't come sooner because I will start snapping more at my fiance and he does not deserve it at all. Especially when he's trying his best to help me out. Dressing me at times even to make sure I don't have to bend over. Hell I can't even pee without him having to pull up my pants.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Nov 25th, '16, 16:35
by jacobgrey
I don't know why you thrive on conflict like this. All I want to do is be calm and healthy. Why is that such a big ask?