I was wrong. Apparently I have to go to page 62. I'm on page 48. So many more to go!

Is he sick?

how many did you get to last night? :o

nope, he just didn't want to go in i guess. >:s

I finished all my sketches this morning!
I managed to go to class today. I feel pretty bad because my professor thinks that I don't take his class seriously. I do, I've just been really extremely depressed.

Thankfully he gave me a chance to make up all the work. So I have 5 big art assignments due before the end of the year. In addition to all my other homework due. I need to buckle down! Thankfully I have my appointment with a psychiatrist on Wednesday. Hopefully the meds will kick in quickly and I'll actually be able to get something done.

Did I tell you I did a massive amount of dishes the other day? So proud of myself.


I've felt like that before. I hope that he feels better soon!
How are you today?

bump.

yay! i'm glad you got them all done, that's one thing over with!

good luck with ur appointment!

no i don't think you did! xD congrats! :p do mine now.

Me too. Now I have to do a bunch more sketches. He wants me to challenge myself though. I don't want to challenge myself. I have enough to do at the moment. Ugh.

I went to the doctor. He put me on a Zoloft generic. Apparently he thinks that my anxiety has been the root of all my problems. And he also thinks that I've got some signs of OCD. I don't really think I'm OCD. Oh well.

I'm really hoping that it starts working quickly.

How are you doing? How was your Thanksgiving?

i'm ocd, it's hard to function with it so i'm sure i need to be on my meds again... SIGH. and my anxiety has been causing a lot of tummy issues lately.

the food was good, then i had to go to work after dinner, and i worked 8-4 today and it was crazy and everyone was pissing me off!

Yeah, like I'm sure I'm a little obsessive about SOME things. But I think that everyone is? I'm definitely not obsessive about everything, or even most things.

You should definitely get on the medicine thing. Make you feel better. Didn't you say that your issues are making you a little paranoid about M? Might help your relationship too.

Yay food! Lame work!

I hate Kevin's grandfather. He's an asshole.

mine is obsessive thoughts and actions. i'll think of the same phrase or thing over and over until i'm really stressed out and anxious. i'll repeat numbers in my head for no reason or dress myself a certain number of times, set things down in even numbers or take sips a certain number of times... sometimes its hard to read because i'll have to read the same sentence so many times and all of it is from fear, i'm scared something will happen if i don't do it even though i know it's silly i still get scared that 'what if'.

and YES i have very bad paranoia. even if he does something simple like close a door i'll think 'why did he do that' 'is he hiding something' 'what if blah blah' it really sucks and i can't seem to stop thinking that way...

did you go over to his house for thanksgiving?

See that is definitely OCD. I just get worried that people are going to die and I am anxious about germs and getting dirty.

Yeah I can see how that makes the relationship more difficult.

Well we went on Monday and he wasn't too bad there. But then we went to Kevin's cousin's house on Thursday and he was a huge dick. And fucking creepy too. Like he kept teasing me that he was going to bring a school bus full of kids to mine and Kevin's wedding. I know he was joking but he kept it up the ENTIRE time we were there. I find that really hateful and disrespectful. To tease someone until they're extremely agitated. And everyone else could tell I was mad too.

And then one of Kevin's little cousins put on some glasses (she doesn't wear them even though she's supposed to) and kevin's gpa was like 'you can't wear those. You're too sexy.' and apparently I made a sound of disgust that only Kevin heard. The baby is 6 years old! She is not sexy! That's disgusting! Do NOT sexualize children! Ugh.