Eh, I think it's normal for you to talk to yourself.
At least, I know a lot of people do it.
I used to think no one ever had full conversations with themselves.
Like argue and discuss things in dept with the voice in your head.
It is gambling 8u
My sister actually plays a mobile version of Call of Duty and it has a gacha system.
Our mom will buy her $25 cards and she'll spend it all in an instant then get upset that she didn't get what she wanted.
That's just how these games work.
I've had my mom get me a card, me used it on my gacha game, and get screwed out of what I wanted.
I felt so horrible because my poor mom gave me her money and I just threw it away.