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Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 8th, '10, 00:53
by Madame Kitsune
I joke about it, but seriously I am so bloody depressed. :/
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 8th, '10, 03:18
by cheerfultragedy
I don't know if I have the confidence needed to run my own game. And I'm afraid that if I fail, my friends won't like me anymore or won't invite me to any more games...
I'm just worried that it'll be a flop and everyone will be so disappointed in me. :(
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 8th, '10, 09:29
by absynthe
What is wrong? I don't understand. What has been wrong these long months? What is really going on? Why is it that you can't come to me anymore? What happened?
I feel like an empty shell of who I once was. I think I've figured some things out, partially at least. But I can't tell you about it because we don't talk . . . and sending a text or a message on some website will just leave me talking to myself again. I've been doing that pretty much this whole time, I can't talk to myself anymore. I've expended all my thought energy, I need input from an outside source . . . from you. And yet I'm not sure I deserve to talk to you. But this limbo you've put me in is agonizing and, to be honest, I'm scared.
Also. I don't think you realize how hard it was for me to do that tonight.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 9th, '10, 03:14
by TuMadre
I'm pretty sure that I have a huge crush, (maybe I might be in love) on my best friend, but they're probably never going to break up with their significant other, and whenever I see them together, my heart hurts and I feel like crying. And I always feel like a third wheel with them, and even though I've told both of them, they refuse to believe it, though I think the girlfriend is trying to fix things.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 9th, '10, 05:16
by ladyceres
For someone who is suppose to be patient about things I'm not really..I want to hear from you and I haven't heard from you in 3 weeks :/. I feel like I'm waiting for a call or a letter and I want to hear from you so you'll say hey I'm coming down..
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 10th, '10, 22:57
by Bramblelegs
i've changed since the last time you've seen me. i've lost weight, and i've become stronger in personality. but will you accept me? no. should i try to talk to you? i don't know....i guess that time goes on. but should i even care anymore?
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 10th, '10, 23:04
by coolwicked
I'm scared of being alone .
Scared that my friends will leave me .
I don't know what to do .
So all I do is shut up and
close my mouth so my friends don't
have to listen to me talk anymore .
I feel like I'm not wanted .
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 11th, '10, 14:58
by Ayuhi
I've have done something very wrong and very bad.
I will do it to make it right. Even if the world will hate me.
Setting it right is the thing I have to do, even if it kills me.
Why was I so stupid?
Why was I so fucking stupid?
I am sorry in a way I couldn't express, only if I would kill myself, but that wouldn't help.
No crying, no suicide.
I have to help this, right here right now.
And if he doesn't believe me, then I'll try again. As long as I have to. Because I made a promise, a promise to myself. And I don't break promises. Even if the world will reject me.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 11th, '10, 15:53
by Errisa
I just realized something.
I try too hard to make myself live in an illusion I set.
I can't tell what is real and what is fiction.
And I sometimes I wait for a phone call that never happens.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Dec 12th, '10, 15:31
by Ayuhi
I am in some shit, I have no idea how deep.
I say to myself: 'Ignore it, it'll be alright, just keep hating them and the world, and you'll be fine'
My only escape is to hate them. Maybe not, maybe it is. I don't know what to do. I just have to keep hating, since I did from my birth.
Never liked my mum, dad, sisters nor cousins and grannies and granpas
Hatred is all I live for, I wonder why.
Who made me like this, or was it just me?
Did someone print it in my head?
Saying, 'Hatred is everything?'
Even closing it, and not love. I do bad things, just to gain the sight of that person. I know I am stupid, and they say love blinds.
But I am not. I know what I am doing. And I know the consequences. I know what I am getting into.
The worst they can do is tell my mum, and she will be angry at me.
I just keep hating her, everything will be fine.
I lost my P.E Coach's trust, lying about what I lied about.
Told him you do not exist, but then you do.
People are angry at me. I can understand. But they do not understand me. They judge too much. Why did he had to inform my mentor?
Now I hate him too, because he is ruining everything. Trusted him, but he didn't trust me. So there was no trust to begin with.
A small fragile faulth, turned it upside down. Now I live in stress, like always and just ignore it.
I feel like I am caring too much, it'll be alright and I just have to shut up.
Even if it kills me. Maybe he does not even love me, then why would I care?
It's alright if he doesn't, it's alright, right?
BEcause, Love only makes hatred, and I will soon hate him too, if he betrays me. Then I'll simply hate everything again, and simply go on with this thing I call my life.