Kingdom of Knuffel

I need something to distract me...
Otherwise I'll feel more and more down the whole day...

Ooooh, believe me, he's a master at hiding things. Specially cookies and muffins xD

then i'll send wolf to sniff them out. wolves have a superior sense of smell. =3=

@maro: why, what's wrong?

We had family issues yesterday. Actually, there;s been trouble for 15 years.
Mom and I have little contact with my dad's side of the family. The contact sort of stopped when he passed away in a car accident. Mom had a psychosis afterwards and she got very little support from them. She got mad at that and send them a letter. This letter is the reason why the contact stopped. I don't know what's in taht letter, but my father's family was hurt by it, abandoned us and never forgave my mom. Yesterday mom gathered the courage to confront my grandma (dad's mom) with it. For the past 15 years she blames herself for the little contact and my father's death. When trying to talk it out with my grandma she said it was indeed my mom's fault, that she's the one to be blamed most. and she kept repeating that over and over again. Mom was crying and still my grandma said it was her own fault. Then mom jumped up, saying we were going and we left. This was probably the last bit of contact that is now cut off. So from now on I won't have any contact with my dad's side of the family anymore.

Well... that's what happened and it bothers me a bit....

oh. :/
i'm sorry that your dad's family is being such a bunch of jerks about this. orz

idk, play a game maybe? read a book? make a rp character? o:

they also kind of hate me because I said I don't miss my father. I was 4 when he died. 4 days after my 4rth birthday, to be exact...
So how can I miss him?

I'm reinstalling minecraft now. And I still need to get dressed...
I have theater in the evening, but until then I need stuff to do.

Sorry to hear you're having those family problems. Seems a really awkward situation.
I guess sometimes it's unfixable, but I'm sure it hurts anyway.


Gaming helps me to unfocus on problems.
Also trying to create something which requires concentration!

It's been awkward for 15 years...
When I saw them last time I feel like a complete stranger. They're strangers to me too... I jsut don't feel a family bond with them....


Hmm.... My own server doesn't work for my friends and a friend's server is not reachable for me....

hullo c:

@maroda: I'm sorry about that. D:

@toten: Hiii. How are you?