I can't say the same because I've been in abusive relationships, but my internal dialogue has been pretty bad at times too. I've worked on it a lot.
XD I speak my mind more than I used to but I still try not to say things that can hurt somebody. Unless I'm mad, then I'm bad.

I'm working on that too. XD
XD I watched her a lot years ago. I started watching her again a while back but I got tired of the drama and she kind of got on my nerves. I mean, I like her but she's got some issues. No amount of money is worth letting people drive you nuts and I can totally see her having a nervous breakdown from all of the criticism she receives. And she got on my nerves because she really doesn't help her situation much. She probably doesn't know what to do. *shrugs*
But we're not talking about having a conversation, if someone is being mean to you it doesn't matter if they want to hear what you have to say or not-fight back.
Me and my mom go back and forth on that issue. She feels more like you do but I feel like we can't blame everything on our childhood. I'm glad he wasn't always mean to you. Oh no. I'm glad that prediction didn't come true. O.O
Wow! Is your dad Vin Diesel? XD I wish my dad was like that. He's a chicken. *rolls eyes* So is my mom. I guess that's why I've had to be tougher, no one else is around here.