Oh wow your life is very stressful :/
But nice to hear that your workers could keep up the good work :)
I am also glad to hear you had fun with J's friends :)

@Julez: Well, he's a guy form a band, I think it's their thing to flirt all over and not paying mind to their actual girlfriends xD

@jacob: At least it was fun and your employees manage :)
I have to say I admire you, I can't get my shit together. I should do a monthly-weekly-daily schedule(s)


My paternal grandma got a stroke on Tuesday. She's now in a hospital, slightly recovering, but her doctor doesn't really tell my dad much, except that they are waiting for more tests for now.

On slightly lighter note, I got a referral to an internship for almost no money for about 6 months I think on a position I'm completely uninterested in. I should've just told her I'm not interested. Why didn't I? Oh, right, I told her that 'perhaps' I'd be interested in that as last resort. Well, I fucked myself hard now. So she gave me the referral. I should've just said I'm not interested. Ugh. I'm so mad at myself now. If they want me and I am the one to deny the offer then my insurance goes out the window for 3 months. Why the f did I not tell her that kind of internship doesn't interest me?
In worst case scenario they take me in, I have to agree and then I work for dog money and maybe simultaneously I look for another job? I mean, I'm pretty sure she said it's a 6-months intrnship. For literally calling people and scheduling trainings. Like, wtf, I'd teach that in a week. #rant
So mad at myself for even accepting that referral. Ooh, I know what I can do! I can tell them I have a phone phobia, that should do it 8D I'm pathetic DX Damn, I already don't want to go there tomorrow, wee! 8D

Meanwhile I'm at 1199/1501, still thinking I can do it XD

mem, I am sorry to hear about the stroke, I hope she feels better soon!

And I agree with jacob. As harsh as it sounds, you don't have anything else/anything better to do now anyway, so you should take this opportunity. You never know. And you will be kept busy.

@jacob: I would probably just take it if it was a normally paid job offer, but it's an internship. Paid, but it's really no money at all. And 6 months is a lot, I think there's some penalty for leaving early. Besides if I took a job/internship I didn't want, I could've done it myself xD I'm so stupid.
I don't even know how trying for an internship looks like... Oh well, I'll see today XD
Fingers crossed, indeed. She's not the youngest grandma ever, over 80 years old, so I was preparing myself for bad news soon. I still hope she'll recover somehow. Although I really doubt our medical care...
At least you have stuff to do, I just sleep in or waste my time and then wonder why my day is so short X'D

@Julez: Thanks.

I actually do have plenty of better stuff to do than scheduling trainings and shitting my pants about calling people for somethig like 250 euro per month. The problem I can't get myself to do them. But I've been motivating myself lately and now Ash went for a weekend trip with his friends so maybe I'll have my shit together.

EDIT:
Okay, so I'm back from the interview and I have mixed feelings. The potential boss seemed okay, down to earth and stuff. Didn't let me ask much though, but I think he just assumed I knew everything I needed. He told me that I'm actually the only person they got with experience in administration, so he'd gladly take me, but if I want to think on it, it's fine. There's a lot of phone calling *shivers* and customer service, so something I'm completely inexperienced with, and I don't feel strong in that field at all. But then he's like "if you don't want this internship, just say so. I understand if the official just gave you the referral because. But if you hesitate, just think on it and you come back here on Monday, either to see how the office works for a few hours, or to have your paper signed."
So on one hand, there's English partners, I'd be using spoken English a lot, that's something I don't do often, so it's an opportunity. The boss seems okay.
On the other hand, the job is about something I am truly terrible at. One would say it's another opportunity to get rid of that phone phobia, but I'll say, I once took a huge leap of faith in myself in April. It didn't go well. And the money is for basically just bread and water but that isn't even the point anymore.
So I'll be thinking on it during the weekend

good luck mem

I hope I did not offend you in any way, this was not my intention.. :)

Well, they seem to be very nice, but I wouldn't know what to do either. I hope you can figure sth out with which you will be happy :)

I chickened out of that internship. Oh well.

And I forgot to log in yesterday, yay

But I've been working out this week and working on outlining that novel of mine so, fingers crossed maybe in a few years I'll get it done xD

I'm still sending more applications lately than before so that also makes me more optimistic. Just the though that I'm actually doing something and not just laying around, wishing someone would hire me out of the blue.