Kingdom of Knuffel

I have selective hearing on certain people I work with..

I feel their words aren't important and I really don't care to carry on actual conversations with them :/.

now tha i have finally a relation with the one i love , i dont know if he have the same feelings for me or just using me

Compared to other secrets of mine, this isn't that "dirty", but when I eat food I feel happy until I finish eating. Then I hate myself to the point of wanting to hurt myself. Everybody tells me that I'm crazy and that my body/self image is way outta whack, but I always feel self conscious and overweight. It makes me so depressed that I think I'm developing an eating disorder from it. (It just sounds so hypocritical coming from somebody else to say "your skinny" or "you're pretty"

On the brink of ending it if nothing can be resolved.

I have been rebelling against my parents for .. a fried .. they think he's like this, that BLAH BLAH BLAH .. people don't understand me, they don't even notice me much that as if I do not exist in this world .. -- I don't want to tell the others, I'd rather not talk about it ..