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Re: 「sotano 」 - whatever happened to the car, we didn't do i
Posted: May 14th, '15, 03:32
by Moi
There was a lot of things different years ago.
Last year I got blindsided three times.
My mom had two cardiac arrests, my grandma died, a friend of ours died, I lost family members, etc.
That's what my dad said I had. My dad and uncle and maybe some others in my family have sleep apnea. My psychiatrist said if I lose more weight, it might help, but since apparently it's genetic, it might not.
Yup. They told me it'd probably take a day to fill and my mom said "We'll get it tomorrow." and we left and I have nothing :D
I looked it up online and sounds almost exactly like my Ambien.
But I miss my Ambien.
I almost cried earlier because I've been taking Ambien so long and now it's gone.
I grow attachment to lifeless things xD
It's called valerian root.
Re: 「sotano 」 - whatever happened to the car, we didn't do i
Posted: May 14th, '15, 19:33
by Moi
I'm sorry to doublepost in your thread, but I'm so anxious and pissed off.
I got prescribed a new sleeping pill yesterday and my psychiatrist told me my insurance covers it, so I was excited. Well, they told us it wouldn't be ready until today, so I suffered through another night and we just went to pick it up and they told us "Sorry, your insurance won't cover it!"
I'm ready to punch the shit out of something.
I'm fucking tired of people dicking me around with my sleeping disorder >___>
Re: 「sotano 」 - whatever happened to the car, we didn't do i
Posted: May 17th, '15, 00:34
by Lacrimosa
i'm so sorry, work has kept me off the comp until now!
i remember, you've been through a lot of rough events. :/ i think it's perfectly reasonable for your depression to have worsened.
ahh, hm i don't know enough about it to know if losing weight would help. but losing weight would mean less stress for your body in general which might in turn help the sleep apnea. o:
are you fucking serious? that's.... :||||||| shouldn't they check that thing in the first place?? do you at least have your other medicine now? DX
and i've not heard of that root o;
Re: 「sotano 」 - whatever happened to the car, we didn't do i
Posted: May 17th, '15, 00:53
by Moi
I don't want it to worsen, everything in my life is negative, why can't I have positives?
I try hard to remain sane, but other people make my health worse.
I feel good having lost all that weight so far.
I plan to lose a lot more :D
Well, my psychiatrist told me my insurance would definitely cover it.
He got really excited about it because my insurance doesn't cover anything except Ambien.
So he asked me if I wanted to take it and I said yes.
Now they're saying my insurance won't cover it.
I got some Valerian root. I can't really give an opinion yet.
It made me fall asleep easier, but I woke up in the middle of the night and tried to go back to sleep and had an anxiety attack.
It felt like the skin on my back was ripping off xD
But I eventually fell asleep and woke up frequently.
If it wasn't for dreams, I wouldn't know if I had slept or not ._.
Re: 「sotano 」 - whatever happened to the car, we didn't do i
Posted: May 17th, '15, 09:10
by VEE
yo yo yo
i decided to invade your hangout
sorry you are having troubles moi ): ): good luck that stuff will be better
Re: 「sotano 」 - whatever happened to the car, we didn't do i
Posted: May 17th, '15, 18:20
by Lacrimosa
you are more than welcome to invade anytime, vee <3
@Moi; I know >< *squeezehug* I wish I was nearby so I could be of more help :/ sometimes it's really good just to be somewhere else, I used to escape to friend's houses... or just outside xD;;
that's awesome!! keep up the good work! :D i'm trying to lose weight on my thighs lol, let's work hard together xD
hmm I see. .__. does that mean you have to go back to the Ambien?
dsfjldkjf that sounds terrible?? was it from the root or was that part of the anxiety attack?
and I know that feeling.. sometimes I have realistic dreams and I can't tell if I was dreaming or if that actually happened <<;
Re: 「sotano 」 - whatever happened to the car, we didn't do i
Posted: May 17th, '15, 20:13
by Moi
I want my own apartment.
I have my own house, but I don't want to live here anymore.
I think people think I'm stupid for that xD
I've lost 20 pounds. I don't know from where because I'm still fat xD
Probably. Unless he won't give it to me again.
The root seems to be pretty helpful.
I think it was just a random occurrence that I got anxiety.
I took the root last night and slept normally.
Re: 「sotano 」 - talk tourabu to me
Posted: May 17th, '15, 20:33
by Lacrimosa
stupid for wanting your own place? pff that sounds perfectly sane and fair to me XD after a while you start to really want your own space, so. would you want to move to a city or anything, or stay in the same area?
dude, nice!! :D and yeah I had that problem too. XD something's gone but?? dunno what?? also clothes suddenly dont fit so good?
ahh I see. :/ have you gotten more of it yet, then? and woah, awesome! it's so good to hear that you finally got some rest XD sometimes natural stuff works better.
Re: 「sotano 」 - talk tourabu to me
Posted: May 17th, '15, 22:38
by Moi
Well, they say "You already OWN a house! That's more than what a lot of people have! Why would you want to move!?"
Having a house is great, but if you don't like where you live, you know...
I'm not saying I'll sell it and be gone forever, I'd just like to be away from here for a while.
Thanks xD
My psychiatrist started me on a new medicine and it makes me eat a lot less and I've lost 20 pounds since February. All I do is eat a little a day. Which people say isn't healthy, but I can't force myself to eat. I'd rather lose weight xD
I can't get Ambien at least until they tell me about my new medicine.
It doesn't help that the clinic is always closed on Weekends xD
I don't know why I get night anxiety - I never used to. This year I started getting anxious. I keep developing worse and worse symptoms.
Like 3 years ago, I didn't have anxiety issues like I do now.
Re: 「sotano 」 - talk tourabu to me
Posted: May 17th, '15, 23:31
by Lacrimosa
i guess, but that still seems silly to me. xD it's not like you need a whole house for just yourself either, right? and yeah that makes sense, you're ready to get out. owo
well it's not healthy if you're going hungry/starving yourself etc, but lowering your portions and decreasing your appetite isn't necessarily bad. just as long as you're not forcing yourself NOT to eat and make yourself sick doing so, etc. oh, and eat stuff that isn't just junk when you do eat. xD
ahh okay, so you still have to wait Dx hmm, is there something in particular you get anxious about? is there anything you can do that relaxes you, like listen to some music? lately I've been drinking a relaxing tea before I go to bed and that helps.
there's been a lot of changes for you in the past 3 years though. is there more that you're worrying about, too? i know a lot of my anxiety affects my sleep as well. when my depression etc was at it's worst, i would have nothing but nightmares, i'd wake up screaming, and i got frequent bouts of sleep paralysis, sometimes everyday. it made me avoid sleeping for as long as i could, i'd go to bed at 8 am and that sort of thing... and even that way i couldn't get a restful sleep.