Kingdom of Knuffel

@Moi: I don't think I'm the same but at the same time I do tend to act like my mother. And also, a narcissist wouldn't think it's their fault so maybe I'm the narcissistic one and not seeing things. I kind of feel detached from reality because I don't know what's real and what's not.
And maybe you think I'm reasonable because I make it sound like it. You don't know their side of the story, so it's expected that you'd partial and take my side.

Haha, now I feel bad for every older sibling including my sister. Us, younger siblings really can be brats. We cry on demand just to get things our way or we hit you with a plastic toy and pretend like you're the one who started the fight XD #nostalgia
But yeah, you definitely shouldn't buy someone a present for your birthday, that's silly :D Real nice, but silly.

I also prefer writing over speaking. I went to an ob-gyn today and wanted to consult my pms (among other things) because maybe it's pmdd instead of pms and he didn't even want to hear me out because I mentioned I read something on the internet. But how else are people supposed to find out? A doctor isn't omniscient, or might even forget about some things and these things get a lot of "nah, you're fine, you're making it up for attention because you're just a woman". And there are many cases where a patient comes to a doctor, says "I found this and that sounds totally like my symptoms, what do you think?" and it turns out to be right. So instead I'm going to try on-line consulting through chat, because it's one of the services I can access.

Why wouldn't they treat you for something they know you have? lol

What if that kitten sees ghosts?
Is it possible she's in pain or something? Maybe that's why she keeps hissing. Or she feels she's in danger somehow.

@Julez: So whenever you feel like it, we'll be here ;)

Well, I can't really say with full certainty that they don't care. They seem to care. It seems more complicated than that. I can find a thousand reasons for why I'm not selfish and another thousand for why I am. Or maybe it's my current state of mind, idk anymore.
I talked to my bff (a psychologist, althgouht not in practice but she still has the knowledge etc) and she told me that there's this thing called "healthy egoism" and it's apparently something people need, so maybe that's it. XD
She also said: "you have one week to make an appointment with a therapist", and also: "did you consider cutting them out?" Although to be fair, she's not impartial

@jacob: Yay for the new person!
I cross my fingers they will let you have the boots. It's as annoying here in Poland. They don't even make an attempt, they just leave a note in you postal box and you're pissed.
Yay for the Oscars on youtube!

Haha, yeah, the mailman don't care and neither does post office

I'm not so sure that it's only male doctors that don't give a shit here XD I've gone to many female doctors and only one was nice durng the whole appointment but she also told me my oms is probably normal. On the other hand all male doctors were always nice to me. It just seems not many want to go deeper than "it's just normal pms and I'm going to smile while you tell me how you found something on the internet". I know I should take these things with a grain of salt but they don't know that I'm aware of that and instead treat me like any other Karen who has brain tumor because she got a headache the other day And they don't want to hear anything, I didn't even tell him much besides "those rage outbursts are insane" and "I've read there might be some mor eintense pms disorders" and I didn't even finish, he just said "you can google things and you'll always end up with some serious disease". Except I didn't voluntarily google it, I just stumbled on PMDD while watching some self-improvement and mental health videos. I had no idea what PMDD was until just yesterday. I should've just told him that but I didn't feel prepared, I don't know that much about this disorder, it sounds kind of right but maybe it's just my temperament, who knows. He prescribed me some herbal pill for my pms. funny thing, he didn't even ask what my symptoms are, he just said "I'll prescribe you this herbal thing even though it's available without any perscription and then if that doesn't help we'll think about some hormonal things". *frustration* If I'd been prepared, went there with a warrior hamster mindset I would've told him why I worry about this. But I didn't feel prepared and he was nice so I got mellow...

Here in the Netherlands the main post delivery company has set a new rule that anything not picked up in 7 days is sent back.
So if somebody sends something as a gift and they don't tell you it's there you would really never get it unless they sent it again. :}

I hate it when delivery drivers don't card if they were meant to.

I do hope the pick up of the boots goes well.


Yeaah drs are a pain in the arse to diagnose for a lot of things in women. Like the history of hysteria is alas about women. That said amusingly drs back then would well stimulate women to try to get rid of the hysteria.... lol

@Moi: Oh my gosh, so you're like my boyfriend xD He can look for something on the internet for ages and stare at it, search for the best option only to tell me a few days later he won't get any because it's not a burning need... and I flip out that he must buy it because he deserves it and he can afford it XD "I'm poor" mindset is hard to live with It's different if one is actually poor tho. But it's weird, I've been poor most of my life (and still probably would be if not for my bf) and I can spend money with more ease than him. I'm still pretty cheap sometimes but it's easier for me than for him.

But how do you bring it up to a doctor that you suspect you have something you found online? They'll always brush it off once they hear the word "internet" and won't even let me ask the questions I want to ask. Or if they listen, they'll say "oh, but that's so rare"... doesn't mean I don't have it only because I'm young and in their mind young=healthy -.-;

God dang it, that's creepy! Is it happening in some particular place or just anywhere?
Can cats have schizofrenia? Maybe she's hallucinating? XD
Or just practicing her lion roar

jacob, I still hope you can get a refund :)
And have fun watching the Oscars!

We also have that 7 days rule in Germany :)