Moi wrote:memoriam: I do that so often. I'll have something important to say, someone or something will interrupt me and I'll just forget everything I was talking about xD
Then I'll remember days later.
For me the most disturbing part is nobody has to interrupt me for me to lose my thought, I just randomly lose it while I'm speaking it...
Seriously, it's brain power outage, it's dead for a short while until I focus enough to recall what I was saying.
Moi wrote:I was like poking it with the knife and twisting it.
I dunno why. I wasn't angry. I was just lost in thought xD
People don't take me seriously when I say I go blank.
Mostly roll their eyes or act like I'm being silly.
But it's scary for me to just stop hearing and seeing and feeling.
As I said, what if I'm driving or doing something serious and I do that xD
I don't get how people can just brush it off like that. It can be dangerous, as you said.
Moi wrote:My memory problems disturb me. Like I feel like I'm just...slowly going out.
I remember when I was a mod on here and this user said I told them they could have someone help them make a knuffel, which is against the rules.
But I KNOW you need to make a knuffel yourself, so I wouldn't tell them that.
But I couldn't remember if I did or not.
I remember the person saying they have issues drawing, but that's all I remember.
So when Firn confronted me about it, I couldn't remember. And it scared me.
And what makes it worse is people don't believe me.
I remember forgetting to do something and my aunt yelled at me.
I said "I forgot to do it." and she said "Oh, yeah, like you have SO much to remember!"
Like I'm lying or just forget shit on purpose just to piss people off.
I hate when that happens. You just forget and there's really not much you can do about it. People do that. Just like people make mistakes. Those things happen. One does not simply forget something on purpose...
I freaking hate when people are inconsiderate and unforgiving like that.
As Lulu said, I'm betting my everything you're having these issues because of the ongoing years of anxiety, constant stress, mobbing, also depression and your insomnia... And it's really a matter of getting out.
Luluannabell wrote:Yeah, those kids are happily staying home. Well, whatever, I get paid for showing up XD
I don't think I daydream a lot when I'm out. When I'm sat in a bus, yes. I've missed my stop a few times. But rarely walking around.
I don't have trouble remembering what I'm talking about unless I'm interrupted, but I will black out when people talk to me...
Ach, mem, you probably just have a cold. It got quite cold very suddenly last week and we had the window open all night. I'm pretty sure I had a small cold for like two days.
Oh, I daydream a lot when I'm walking. I only pay attention to where I'm going if it's a new place because otherwise I'll have an even higher chance of getting lost (which I have a talent for). I actually have a habit of walking around the apartment whenever I'm thinking of a scene I want to write
Maybe it was a cold, but usually a simple cough doesn't involve a 4-days constant headache and random palpitations... That's why I'm wondering. Otherwise I'm pretty much fine, a little more runny nose than my usual (I always have that no matter what in the mornings and evenings, when I get sick I know because it gets red from all the blowing throughout the whole day). And I could sleep all day, except I couldn't because work. Other than that it didn't seem dangerous at all. But the hospitalized cases of covid-19 are definitely a minority. People can have no symptoms and thus not know they got it. I kept myself warm and drank a lot, taking some vitamins and home medicine and I'm better now. Just, you know, concerned, because you never know. But also the tests are super expensive and I'm like nope, not paying that, thanks XD
Moi wrote:
Normal to me is being able to hear something and remember it 30 seconds later xD
I was really hoping my breathing machine would help me.
Maybe I haven't used it long enough...
Oh, haha, no worries, I do that too XD
Play hide and seek or something with me, idk. And then they come back. Like a power outage, kind of. I'd say it's more of a light-headed thing than lost in thought. But maybe that's just my interpretation of the phrase, I'm not an English native, idk 