Thankfully I mostly can recall what I was saying not too long after I went blank XD

Well, then does she even grasp the concept of forgetting? 'Cause it doesn't seem like she does There's no use in snapping at someone for forgetting. She might as well snap at herself, 'cause if she remembered to get the thing, she'd just get it.

Do you have some bigger physical difficulties alongside the mental ones like depression etc.? And how old is your lil' sis? I forgot
Maybe you could start offering some simple services online, like maybe transcribing texts or proofreading anime subtitles, making subtitles in movies or something. You're also an artist, right? You could sell your art online. I mean, these things probably wouldn't be enough to let you fly out of your nest, at least not fast, but there would be something to start off of, right? I feel there are many remote jobs and/or small businesses you can try. Think of your interests and hobbies, I'm sure there's something out there for you

Lists are so helpful. I make them too, even though bf tells me we don't need them because he'll remember all the stuff we need. Then he forgets something. Or worse, wants us to go to two different shops and I'm left without a list to rely on, plus stressed, because I need to tell someone what I need etc. = human interaction.
So I make lists anyways xD

But do those things make it hard for you to take care of yourself?
13 is a big girl already! How much help does she require on the daily?

With online business it's easier because you usually communicate with the clients through online means like e-mail unless you put your phone number out there. But it's really up to you, right? And in writing you have the time to cool off and word everything properly to be understood well I have a terrible problem with speaking. Like, the other day I had a call at work with Indian guys with super thick accent, so it's incredibly difficult to understand their English (even though you can tell it's not completely terrible by the pace they speak at) and I was asked by my manager to ask my questions (I merely made him some notes through hangout) and I was unprepared and couldn't make a coherent sentence and explain what I was trying to say. Terribly stressful. But then after the call when my manager asked to prepare an e-mail explaining what options we have now and what we want to have, I had no problems. I just needed time to think through what needs to be said and how to word it to be transparent.
It also would depend on what kind of services you'd offer. You might as well just set up an online store at etsy or something, that sounds like really minimized human interaction. You'd have to think what you'd like to do and what options you have

Wow, I feel like I've had that conversation with my mom, about human interaction online. She's like you and that octopus:

Exactly!

Maybe that's just me, but those sound like a bunch of cute little excuses to not get out of a not-so-great environment that you're currently in If you find going places difficult then do you really need to be driven places? You can also try going somewhere by yourself once in a while just to exercise your confidence and challenge yourself a little. You gotta start believing in yourself

It's never too late to learn a skill Cooking can be fun, experimenting is an adventure for sure. I discovered it while I was trying to maintain a gluten free, lactose free, sugar free diet... I'm still on it, it's difficult but also tasty and my body feels so much better. Omlettes with banana slices and some fresh raspberries or blueberries is way tastier than just an omlette with jam xD

Well, then stop being a pussy and advertise

I know, it's me sometimes, too XD

Mem: I've had what I thought was random heart palpitations when I had a cold a few times. My doctor said it's inflamed muscles around the heart. The heart itself is fine. I do take medicine that can cause that, so that's probably why I get that more often. If you want to be sure you don't have random heart palpitations, I'd suggest getting a pulsoximeter (that's what it's called in German at least). Tracks your oxygen and heart rate. When I feel like something's wrong, I check that, and my heart rate will be completely fine.

Moi: have you thought of getting some assistance for handling professional situations? Like not paying an assistant obv if you don't have the money, but getting someone else to do online writing and connecting to get you started enough to make some kind of money.
Where are you doing commissions?

It's getting warm again in Germany. Why. I was so ready for autumn and winter.

Well yeah I figured you needed someone to talk to potential customers for you, not that you didn't know how to handle it when you do get commissions, sorry if that came out wrong.
Is deviantart also slowly dying or have I just not visited it in the last 7 years? I can't tell. I think many people have just moved to Instagram.

Same. I was so excited and happy and now I'm dehydrated again and I hate it. ._. Who gave the weather permission to be like this?