I'm switching banks because I need an account in order to save up and not spend money in November.
The good news is I think I honestly like this bank enough and the customer service person was so nice.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Oct 26th, '11, 05:37
by MooingMoe
You and kiley.
Whats your problem with me?
Kiley is stubborn and leaves me out.
You just ignore me.
The worst thing I have done was when I whisper in kittyies ear to go ask if you were her mommy. She declined. What do you think I said?
Honestly.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Oct 27th, '11, 02:42
by Kizuki_Utaku
When I was little I did something I deeply regret. . .
It's made me severely afraid of sex / losing my virginity / growing up in general, do the point where I will throw up because of the emotional stress. . .
I wasn't even through elementary school yet. . .
I don't even remember his name. . .
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Oct 27th, '11, 03:31
by HanafuruLove
I can fix this! I can maintain control! Knowing the problem makes it easier to tackle!
....Yeah RIGHT. Why did I ever think I'd be able to fix anything? I'm going to be stuck in the middle of this forever.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Oct 27th, '11, 03:43
by Kizuki_Utaku
Why do you scold me? I'm not the spawn of the devil. . . I'm your daughter. . . Don't you love me anymore? I can't call you "Mommy" anymore. . . Daddy doesn't want to remember I exist. . .
Do you not love me anymore, Mom? Dad? Where are you when I need you? [youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wLgqx9Aez_4&feature=related[/youtube]
I love you so much, it hurts to breathe sometimes. I waited for you for over five years. In the end, I gave up. It finally became clear you didn't want me. I gave up everything for you. I love you. As soon as I found someone new, you decided you wanted me. Why? Why did you do this to me? If all it took for you to realize your feelings was for me to date someone else, why did you wait for FIVE YEARS?!
I broke the glass for you, but you never came through. I've lost all of my limbs. When my heart was the last thing to break the glass was when you came to me. I have nothing to giveyou but my broken shell. I'm sorry. [youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9HWcFl41Xw&feature=related[/youtube]
You helped me to see everything in a new perspective. I love you. But. . . Why do you still try to take away what's most important to me?
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Oct 28th, '11, 04:07
by damuleofladyceres
..I don't want to be the reason you won't talk to her it makes me upset that you would even say that.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Oct 28th, '11, 06:03
by HanafuruLove
Oh god...why did I have to remember him now? Why did I have to remember him AT ALL? That was like a kick in the stomach...
And then there's you. Killing off the memories would mean killing off you. I don't want to end you, but I don't see any other way out. The more I try and the less it works the more I question trying this at all. I can't seem to let you go. I don't know what I want.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Oct 30th, '11, 01:10
by moonlight_sonata
I wish I had a new body a better one to. One that I dont have deal with so much pain.One when it doesn't hurt to walk or hurt to hold my arms up. A body free from my HS. I wonder if god hates me sometimes........
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Oct 30th, '11, 06:44
by HanafuruLove
I wish every day was like this. This is what it means to be happy, but it comes a long so rarely. I don't want it to end...
Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Oct 30th, '11, 09:49
by Celestial Wolf
Can't get enough of you. Can't get enough of your warmth. I just want to stay in your arms for as long as I can, before my adhd behavior kicks in, then jump back for more. The first time...so far only time... That was wonderful. I want to do it again. I dunno if I should be happy or startled that we long for each other like this~
