Kingdom of Knuffel

I don't know if I'm better yet. I'm not as moody today. I got pissed at the fucking filth we've been having in the apartment so I decided to just have a cleaning day all on my own (Ash was out helping a friend move into a new apartment). It's super hot and it was tiring af. I was kind of expecting for my period to strike halfway through the cleaning but nope. My boobs are still killing me. And my spine, jeez, I usually don't get this but this month it's really uncomfortable. Thank God I learned yoga poses that I can do to relieve that for a moment.
I noticed I really don't have much energy, had to take frequent breaks. Maybe it's the heat. And I couldn't really focus XD I should check myself for that adult adhd, Idk. My psychiatrist recommended two doctors who specialize in that more than she does so I could get a second opinion. I just keep forgetting

@periods: My sister taught me how to use tampons xD I think we were on vacation somewhere by the sea. Lol.
I would prefer tampons, because I actually don't feel them, but the fact they intensify my cramps is a big no-no. So I settle for pads, but I really dislike them too XD I always feel like I'm wearing a diaper and I buy the thin kind. It's just uncomfortable. Plus all the waste. I'll look into cups, I promise

@jacob: That buggy sounds awesome! I didn't even know such things existed!

I think it about a year after my first period that everyone went swimming and I was on my period. Really wanted to join my friends, so practiced for an entire afternoon with tampons. I don't feel them, if I feel them, it's simply not in the right place.

Dunno, I really like my washable pads though, they're not wet, if they're truly starting to feel a little wet, it's usually time to change. Throw away one's I might be able to use a little bit longer, but I really dislike the smell, I started to like my vagina a bit better when using these now. :) It's just regular blood. Not smelly, just... well, blood. >.> Throw away pads really make it nasty.

@ Jacob: Ah, I keep forgetting Ikea's apparently not cheap everywhere, but I dunno, I always feel that their price/quality is quite ok. I've compared the Netherlands and Hungary and it seems the same. Like, I just bought cups, the cheapers one's are 290 HUF, which is €0,82. That's not much. In the Netherlands €0,79, even less. VAT is a bit higher in Hungary.

Buggy sounds good, hope you'll get good use out of it. :)

Last time I went into water with a tampon was last year, at a wedding party. We went to a jaccuzzi for a bit. I specifically bought tampons because I knew I'd be on my period but I really wanted to get on that jaccuzzi shit XD And it also confirmed my theory that tampons make my cramps stronger and last longer. So I would only use tampons in such "emergencies" now.

Oh yeah, the smell is off-putting. I can always just smell myself even when I barely began bleeding and it's icky. (I generally can smell myself even when not on my period, so it's still icky, lol). Plus it adds to my social anxiety, my brain is like: "if you can smell it, everybody can! " But whenever I asked Ash about it, he says he doesn't smell anything from me.
Might be I'm just highly sensitive that way. It's not the only instance of my sense of smell being much more sensitive than his.

I woke up at 4/5-ish in the morning with some cramps, was sure the time has come. But it's now almost midnight and still nothing xD My uterus is doing me dirty Usually the moment I start hoping for a pregnancy, I start bleeding, but so far no "luck" It's just one day late, so nothing to overthink. I'll just wait patiently, because that fucker always comes sooner or later.

Anyways, I spent my weekend cleaning the apartment XD But at least I'm on vacation this week, so I can and want to actually do stuff for my business during the week. Treat it like a normal job week. I'm quite excited tbh, that's new, lol

I literally have no idea if the water was helping because I already was on very strong pain killers
I was more concerned about my boobs jumping out of the bikini top because, you know, I bought it when my boobs were normal and then they were still a little bigger from pms and threatening to flash people. Luckily that didn't happen

I probably do. Ash calls me a hound sometimes, often when I tell him I smell something and he can't smell a thing Maybe I'm a blood hound, lol If I were a dog, maybe. But I'm more of a cat by nature anyways.

Yeah, that exactly what happened on that wedding But my period does the same for small things, like I'll plan togo out grocery shopping and then BAM I can't move
Like right now, it's already 11 a.m. and I've done all the housework I wanted to do. All I needed to do was wait for Ash to finish a meeting and then we could go to the farmer's market (still waiting, lol), and after that I wanted to finally sit down to business. Before Ash even started that meeting, I got my period XD Hopefully I'll be better after a pain killer. But still, that's just effing mean of my uterus

I like to think I'd make it into a joke if I actually flashed people, but Idk, maybe I'd go drown myself from embarrassment We'll never know, lol.

Haha, yup, sometimes even when you keep track, this thing just creeps up on you
My sister keeps recommending that menstrual cycle app to me and I'm like... but what for? It's no use for me, in my case it's just counting to 28 +/- 1-2 days of wiggle room and it doesn't hold the space on my phone, there's enough shit there already