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Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*
Posted: Aug 6th, '21, 10:06
by memoriam
@Jolien, i'm sorry for your loss
There's something going on in the air. My mom's boyfriend most probably has cancer. They're in the process of finding out for sure. My bff's first cat got metastasis within the last week and she only found out about the cancer about 6 months ago, so obviously she's devastated. And on top of that some horses she works with got injured so she can't bring them to the competition like they had planned...
And to add my own two cents, I'm noticing a lot of stuff wrong with Ash since he moved out to the new apartment. (I'm not sure I mentioned here that he wants to live on his own for a month or two? I'll be living with my mom). A few days ago we were on the phone, comparing who's doing better so far and I said I'm being pretty resourceful on my own. And that dumbass goes: 'You're not as resourceful as you think you are'... EXCUSEMEWHATTHEHELLSTHATDUPOSEDTOMEAN

Anyways, that's just a storytime for you, since that's already resolved (it better be, made him understand he hurt me and that such behavior is unacceptable - I kind of sound like a dog mom, lol). Overall I've noticed after just several days that I'm more resourceful alone and get kind of sloppy and around him, but he's the other way around. He managed to hurt himself a lot already, and he can't make up his mind about anything and calls me to help him out. But when he came to help me pack yesterday, he got all level-headed and down to earth again. So my conclusion is our relationship dynamic is messed up and out of balance. Me relying too much on him and him feeling too much responsibility for everyone and everything including me, without much support from my side. So I'm looking forward to taking my power back and hopefully he can relax and enjoy some freedom.
And cherry on top: I'm pmsing so him being a gummy bear pisses me off

Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*
Posted: Aug 6th, '21, 23:39
by Moi
Jolien: I didn't ask her because our mom talked to her about it so I didn't bring it up again.
I'm sorry about that ;~; -hugs-
I've been on the verge of bawling but I've been forcing it away xD
Mem: That's a lot of bad luck :\
That's an interesting story. I know when people are apart, they can do stuff they normally wouldn't.
When my mom was gone, I made food for my sister, cleaned house, did the dishes, etc.
As soon as she came back, I stopped doing those xD;
It's not that I can't do it, I don't want to do it <<
Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*
Posted: Aug 7th, '21, 13:31
by Jolien
Thanks. <3
And I'm sorry Mem, that really stinks. Hope your relationship will work out again, I did read a part of moving apart for a while, but I missed the why.
I stopped counting people I lost due to cancer, there are just too many. And way too often they're the young, sporty, health concious people so I kinda just stopped caring about many things and try to enjoy my life. You never know what will happen, better make the most of it.
Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*
Posted: Aug 7th, '21, 21:06
by Moi
I've lost many to cancer as well - including someone I met on this site. He was my bestie's boyfriend and we never got along. Well, he was really nice to me and I didn't care for him so it was just me that didn't get along with him. We eventually bonded over art and became friends but he died not long after. If I remember right, he had pancreatic cancer.
He gave me some of his stuff on here and he told me something like "Good luck with your life!" and I told him "You too!" trying to keep hope alive. Then my bestie told me he had died a little while later.
My neighbor across the street currently has cancer. Her husband has cancer too and she said he has like...20 tumors in his lungs or something.
He smokes a lot too. I mean...there's no point to stopping now, I guess :\
My grandpa died from lung cancer and he had quit smoking many years before and it still killed him =__=
Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*
Posted: Aug 7th, '21, 21:35
by Jolien
I don't really know that many people anymore who smoke, even a few of my local quit. I only know my grandpa died of lungcancer apparently, but that was like 40 years ago.

All other sorts I've heard already, quite sad. :(
My friend is a survivor of brain cancer, but her life has changed for good, she cannot work anymore, has problems concentrating. So glad she's still here, but I honestly think she still suffers. :(
I need a happier topic. Any ideas? We could get back to food. ;-P
Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*
Posted: Aug 8th, '21, 01:53
by Moi
My mom used to smoke a lot. Like she'd go through maybe two packs a day or more.
My dad also smokes just as much, but my mom stopped smoking years ago.
My dad stopped for a while, but went back to it =~=
I was so upset by that because he quit for like 5 years.
My mom's work friend got cancer, beat it, then died from it when it came back.
That's so unfair xD
Like life's not fair and all but seriously???
Ehhhh food...
I have not had a good time eating lately.
What about cats? You guys like cats?
I got like 80 of them u88888
Well, not really but xD
We're currently getting close to this calico kitten who randomly showed up 8u
I named her Toffee and she's letting us get closer and closer >:3
Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*
Posted: Aug 8th, '21, 14:02
by Jolien
I prefer cats over dogs. We don't have our own though, one tends to come by when we grill outside, but again I haven't seen him in a while.
We named him Chili and he prefers grilled meat over the cat food we put out for him...

Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*
Posted: Aug 8th, '21, 20:41
by Moi
I actually prefer dogs, but I love cats xD
Well, if they're like sweet, cuddly cats they're like dogs so 8u
Chili is a cute name for a cat x3
We've had a few cats go missing. It's honestly upsetting. They have been with us for like three years and they just disappear. It doesn't feel right. Why would they be regulars nearly every day for years then just stop coming?
All of the cats are different. They all have their own personalities. We pretty much took in these three:
Momo, who is pretty much my baby, is extremely mean and hostile to all other cats but she can be really sweet and loving.
Dooty-do is really energetic and laid back. Nothing bothers him and he kills roaches which is totally fine by me.
Sabre is really lovable and responds if you talk to him but he's also very territorial and attacks other cats.
Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*
Posted: Aug 8th, '21, 22:15
by Jolien
Aww, we just had a tiny kitty who came by. A cutie, gave her (I think, didn't check well) some cat food and now she want's to come in...

Dunno though... :<
Re: *⁂* Confetti Rain *⁂*
Posted: Aug 9th, '21, 01:29
by Moi
Awww what does she look like :3
We've had a few cats come by that just instantly trust us.
Like clearly they must have been around people, right?
They're strays, though.
Well, they're community cats and belong to the community u8
I keep fretting more cats will disappear now. One that's been around for a good many years disappeared.
She's the mom of most of the cats around.
She slept in our house a lot, had her own litter box, got fed, was shown tons of love...and she's been gone for like two weeks.
It makes me sick.