Jolien wrote:Hope you'll get over the insomnia state soon then. .__. Sounds nasty. :>
And you're not expired at all. <3 How's the house situation atm?
I suspect the culprit for the insomnia might be the late intake of extra caffeine. I've been drinking it just for the taste (and warming up) after 7 p.m., which sounds silly, but I usually don't feel very moved by coffee during the day, so I didn't think it'd make me stay up until 4 a.m.
Another explanation might be my nose and sinuses' conspiracy to end my existence
I swear to dog, I can breathe fine during the day and when I'm sitting. But once I lay my head down on the pillow I'm suddenly stuffed and suffocating, and can't breathe even when I stack my pillows and end up sleeping completely seated. So I could breathe while sitting before, but turn the light off and my sinuses also turn off. Daquack?
And third explanation that comes to my head is my mind is getting restless and I don't know how to switch it off. But it could be a combination of all three for all I know.
I didn't drink that late coffee today and I intend to not drink coffee after 6 p.m. for a few next days, so if that doesn't fix things I'll probably go back to my sleeping aid (meaning: more meds! yay!
Also, I forgot to take my meds last night and forgot to take them again this morning, so only now I remembered that I still need to at least take my night dose, missing meds can probably mess with my sleep, idk)
On the house part: nothing really changed. We'll probably live separately until my mom comes back from the UK, but I suspect it can last even longer than that. So who knows.
Spoiler: Click for oversharing text wall
I talked with Ash after a prompt from my therapist. Itold him it would be easier for me to handle the "unknown" if we established roughly how long he'd like to live separately. He still said he doesn't know. So I offered, since my mom is in the UK with my sister for a few months and I'm taking care of the cat, that we could stay separated until my mom comes back to Poland. He said okay.
He did mention living on his own for a while was his pre-pandemic therapist's idea (ahah! so it wasn't my idea after all! - is what I should've said, but didn't XD I probably just encouraged it after he told me, anywho), and then he said she was apparently onto him and that he should make an appointment with her.
And the my silly me went like this:
Me on the outside: Mhm *nods*
On the inside: YEEEEEEESSSSSS *hits the golden buzzer* CONFETTI RAIN, HE'S FINALLY GOING TO THERAPY!
My anxiety: Stupid, he's probably only mentioning it, and so casually at that, to fool you!
Me on the inside again: Wth-, how could I even think that?
And yeah, I'm not expiring... YET XD jk
@Moi: Exactly, let's deal with the root of the cause, not the victims of said cause. It's like saying "it's only a crime if they catch you" or something like that. Like, no dude, even if you get away, it's still a crime...
EDIT: Okay, how the HELL did I just create that text wall in response to a simple question?!
I'm terrified. Am I oversharing? Wth?
EDIT2: Ok, I added a spoiler, 'cause that's too much XD
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). then went to my grandma's and got acall from dad, was surprised he'd remembered and then as he began talking I realized... he didn't remember XD And he's so talkative I couldn't even say "huh, I thought you called me to wish me happy birthday, but it's funny you decided to call today anyway, I appreciate just hearing you :)" XD He didn't even give me a chance, lol.
